Manifestation Mondays: The Garden 2022 and Life Updates

Meals begin with a smile made of olive oil sprayed into a frying pan in a failed attempt to fix my anxiety/depression.

Use the underlined hyperlink text to walk the Earth and fly to your home in the sky.


How long has it been; I lost count of the days and weeks. I wanted to finally re-open the blog, but I’m presently working on a new resumรฉ as well as looking for part time work. I’m unsure to date still of how I want to re-design my blogging schedule having just recovered from a uterine tract infection. I’m also going to show one month out how the new organic garden is shaping up for everyone to see minus the sunburn I acquired recently; even as a Leo natal Sun on the Western zodiac I get crispy when radiated. Really much of the plants are just green sprouts, shoots, and leaves this early in the planting season for us. Too many cold spells had us starting later than I wanted.

I needed some serious time to ascertain what I was doing with this blog or my business which I’m still very unsure, but getting clearer on letting it all go without regret. It generates zero income for me whatsoever therefore I’m heavily still contemplating when in terms of an actual date to simply close up my DBA focusing all my attention elsewhere given what I foresee for the years ahead in my life. I’m heavily coping with my desire to abandon esoterics altogether which means I don’t even know if I want to keep tarot decks because I’m disinterested now.

Keeping this routine up is also far too time consuming for me. I really can’t possibly sit forever at a computer screen. Not only is this overall unhealthy as it’s sedentary, but I deserve better! I simply deserve a lot better than Zoom meetings, blogs, and other false life experiences within a matrix of binary gibberish! I watched a video of the virtual reality Oculus type stuff on someone only to realize I don’t get it. I have glasses. Growing up with a lazy left eye, astigmatism, and thick lenses got me bullied as well as picked on leaving me scarred. People literally want to look like that with those contraptions on their faces. I’m so confused!

And this is not me trying to be hateful to those people; I honestly don’t understand you! Sorry dear technocrats we really don’t see eye to eye and never will!

I gave up ASMR and am really eager to give up all iPhone app games. I’ve removed television from my negative habits list. So the clean out I wanted is working in terms of removing that which I don’t feel serves me. It has to sound strange because I won’t relate to anyone pretty soon is the way that I feel. I literally won’t have much in common with those I’ve had in my life. Even my diet has continued to change. Took a step father/daughter day to the shooting range to practice. Yes, I’m a member of one of “those” kinds of families although I only really aim at paper targets or inanimate objects out there and not real people or animals. I was more distracted by all the butterflies I was seeing. Don’t ask!

Taxes this year for our family due to current events required some financial payments like our medical bills in January that have completely re-shaped our lives and the way it looks this won’t be changing with inflation or other factors being predicted. Therefore if this blog and business are dead weight it is my estimation that eventually it will be offloaded as baggage I’m unwilling to carry for too long. Which is difficult knowing I paid for 3 years of web service with my host whom I’m also a bit now in disagreement with due to my apolitical or non political views so when they pick sides to “stand with” we simply won’t agree.

It is hard to find your business or blog attached to that which you are in moral or ethical conflict with. Let’s be honest I don’t normally patronize businesses if I feel extremely unhappy with certain practices they adopt/employ. The services are stellar, but… Can’t you leave politics out of this?

I’m not pro or “standing with” either side within recent conflicts because as I’ve said I’m apolitical or non political. Both sides in my opinion are illusions and controlled opposition on the fronts of Divide and Conquer as well as Hegelian Dialectic where people are supporting the latest trends by shallow virtue signaling with no forethought or afterthought to the repercussions of their very actions which occur when we all practice groupthink in echo chambers as I stated previously. Radical change in 2022 for me. YES! I did not expect it, but it’s growing on me.

You will find me struggling with three problems now known as apathy, anxiety, and depression. I’m dealing with wanting to get off the digital plantation others are on due to my ever expanding knowledge of what is unfolding which others are ignoring as they peddle an ideology which they rightly know will do harm to most life on Earth. These groups have one goal and one goal only. Profit is their only desired achievement and they go about it with the motto “the ends justify the means.” You could consider this a toxic dis-ease that impacts all ways of life because people profit by more than just the monetary energy they exchange. The dog eat dog model is not my cup of tea!

If you’d like to see previous gardening blog posts you can find them below:

The seed storage is always growing. Cosmos, dahlias, celosia, hollyhock, sunflowers, echinacea, lemon balm, songbird mix, and edibles seen above.

What have we planted in 2022? A variety of wildflowers some edible with basil, lemon balm, echinacea, marigolds, hollyhock, potatoes, roma tomatoes, carrots (orange and rainbow), beans (green, yellow, and purple), and lettuce (varieties). The garlic chives survived the autumn and winter seasons returning this spring. Presently I’m just bulking them up on local organic fertilizers both dry and wet including root builder from Microlife, Rose Glo, and HastaGro. We are adding coffee grounds as well as ground up egg shells for calcium. Due to shortages of bone meal and blood meal it’s about adapting.

Here are the photo collages I’ve created:

Green, Yellow, and Purple Beans (Sprouts/Leaves)
Carrots (Barely Emerging Out of the Mud/Soil)
Potatoes and Roma Tomatoes (No Vines Yet)
Garlic Chive, Lettuce, and a Random Snail
Lots of Basil
Ladybug, Wildflowers, and Lemon Balm (First Ladybug I’ve Seen in 2022)
Marigolds and More Wildflowers

Today I’m going to end with one Arabic Part/Lot although I was torn between two; Hope and Peace. I’m choosing to go with Peace using the formula Ascendant plus Venus minus Sun. I’m opting to go with this because I have a Lourdes amulet with grotto water on my wealth altar which is in the form of a necklace when I paid to have someone take my wish to be read there several years ago asking for peace on Earth and an end to wars. Like the paper origami cranes I had made years ago I’m still waiting for someone to grant this wish and well I’m just not sure anymore.

The amulet is supposed to be worn for protection with reference to my health. The request was made directly after my foot fractures. I really don’t care what religion this was as I’ve stated over and over with repetition I became fully Catholic in my twenties, but have studied several of them so I’m really non-dogmatic. They each have their pluses and minuses respectively! Spiritual concepts reach beyond mere organized religions used to control the 3D. Peace is not going to come when most seem to worship at an altar of war and strife getting rich/drunk on both.

Still waiting…

You will find Peace for me within my 1st House of Libra at 15ยฐ which is best summed up as the sign rising on the Eastern horizon at the moment of one’s birth signalling new beginnings centered upon the individual defining that person as who they are and who they will become for it implies this is when they realize their best self and ultimate potential. To become a unique individual one contributes to the world within which they live. This is the sum total of one’s being internally and externally in how they approach life.

Peace Arabic Part/Lot

The chart holder knows how to take the time via carefully personal and artful attempts to bring out the very best in situations whereby they create maximum enjoyment for both self and others. This assists others to feel all of life more vividly fully slowing down to see with far greater clarity what is truly most important to themselves. This is a beautiful skill executed wonderfully.

Giving loving and careful attention to all that we do creates in us an attunement to a pure source of deep inner wisdom. Realizing the repetitive nature of all cycles we come to see the deeper meaning and purpose of that which we continually repeat. Looking deeply into life we find those things of great value that help us to bring loving care into all that we do. Perceiving the ancient imprints that exist in the deepest layers of our unconscious we are able to see more clearly the one-sidedness of our thinking and how all thoughts are illusions. Work with guardian angel Hahasiah and daimon Balam.

You’ve likely seen my recent entries incorporating both guardian angels and daimons. Well you have to understand what these are beyond those of organized religions who fail to grasp metaphysics. So let’s look at this word and it’s origins.

Daimon is a noun and synonym of demon via Greek mythology representing a tutelary deity/spirit which watches over a person or place. For example, on the island of Ko Kho Khao in Phang Nga Bay, Thailand many build spirit houses as shrines for protective spirits of a place. ฮดฮฑฮฏฮผฯ‰ฮฝ (daimon) is a God/Goddess, divine power, deity, and guardian spirit known in Latin as a genius signifying one’s fate, destiny, and fortune.

Spirit houses provide shelter for spirits which may otherwise create problems for people if not appeased. These shrines often include images or carved statues of people and animals. Votive offerings are left at the house to propitiate these spirits. the most common offering are fruits (e.g. banana, orange, grape; some people even offer different fruits at the same time.)

In neighboring Thailand however, it is a long-standing tradition to leave offerings of food and drink at the spirit house. The idea is one which believes that friendly spirits will congregate to enjoy free food and drink where their presence will serve to keep more malign spirits at bay. Offerings are usually given with a focus on the color red. Most point to the significance of the color red as being quite reminiscent of animal or blood sacrifice, but I also believe this has much more to do with the Root chakra. Why you ask; because animals hold metaphyiscal rather than literal value.

Sacrifices are a refining process of mental and bodily energy with reference to the ascension of spirit which brings one to higher states of consciousness. It is a removal of impurities, but many are often trapped with seeing these concepts through a literalized viewpoint which needs some serious correction. Blood in the metaphyiscal is in fact referring to race mind which must be transmuted from destructive ideas such as fear, doubt, and inharmony.

Daimon Balam is connected to the Seven of Wands, Sun, Leo and Oak. This divinatory spirit reveals answers of the past and present as well as that which is to come teaching astral invisibility while helping one to get over their social awkwardness and discomfort. Mental aptitude and cunning will help one be successful, but really one works with Balam for expanded wisdom and higher intellect of the spiritual world. One begins to make meaning of that which otherwise goes unnoticed. This daimon also helps one exercise caution when dealing with adversity especially that of unknown enemies.

As stated previously mom and I are Holly on the Celtic Tree Calendar being born respectively 7/26 and 7/29.

This degree sits at Beta Volans in Volans the flying fish. Volans represents a type of tropical fish which can jump out of the water and glide through the air on wings occasionally landing on the decks of ships being used for food. This fixed star represents most accurately the metaphor of a fish out of water signifying that which is out of their element; a stranger, one in exile, and a foreigner.

These flying fish known as Exocoetidae from exo-koitos means bed, lying down outside, and sleeping under the stars. Volans is the present participle of volare (to fly) and a derivative of volant (having wings). Volo is another derivative meaning “I Wish” which comes from voluntas (free will) and volatus (flight) to signify a spirit flying anywhere it wishes.

I am not sure when I will blog again, but if I continue to you may see a lot more of the garden on/off for a while as I enjoy seeing and showing our progress with what we’ve produced. As stated above I’ll have to work on a schedule if I desire to retain this space or make any progress with my business. As always you can support me and help me regain motivation by purchasing an astrology report or through donation. I don’t expect a reply to this though! And no it’s actually not self pity.

I hoped this would keep me out of a corporate job, but it’s simply not produced any fruit which is also factoring into my decision to get off the digital plantation again as I did when I closed my aesthetics business. If you’re really wondering why I closed my blog it’s because at present there is a lot of censorship. Speaking about virtually anything anymore comes with great risks therefore I’m honestly considering if that risk is even worth being here.

We live in a day as well as an age that is so devolved right now and so propagandized, cancel cultured, and hypocritical one will recognize they may prefer to not associate with any of the present now moment out of a disgust with humanity. And yes some of this comes from a recent trek in analyzing an allegory by Edgar Allan Poe which dealt with masks, masquerades, death/feebleness or old age, the indulgences of the seven deadly sins, and the stages all experience in life.

Essentially this ongoing problem was something that began with my first blog entry and as time has progressed the digital age has only grown worse with this dis-ease in the shortest amount of time I’ve ever seen. Those who do not know how the internet was in the late 90s won’t understand how over the years for us older users of such platforms we’ve seen the world of AI, cyber, and such turn into a “monster” with which we may simply be willing to say a heartfelt “NO” to.

The Grinch has yet to grow a heart big enough for us to accept or even embrace his distorted ideas of Whoville! Besides nature has way more to offer than virtual reality. What I would say for now is to not expect me to blog again for quite some time. I don’t have my heart in it anymore, and I’m having such difficulty wanting to promote my business as it’s dead weight that I’m likely to give up. I can’t tread water anymore when I’m out of steam/energy. I either want this or I don’t. I’m beginning to realize and finally accept that maybe I really don’t because as I’ve said I’m happier not online and either face to face with real people or out in the actual world of nature touching that which is tangible instead of fake.

Have a bountiful Monday and best wishes! ๐ŸŒœ๐Ÿ“…

“Silence is a powerful weapon.” – Unknown

PS: Forgot to mention we’re actively waiting on a flour grinder. We want to be able to grind our own flours and make baked goods. There was some thought of selling items at Farmer’s Markets instead of doing this, but I don’t know if we’ll go that route. I was also wondering about all the buckwheat cover crop I grew last year. If we grew it again could we grind it and use it.

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I am a licensed aesthetician (#1446048 Expires October 2023 Valedictorian) who has worked previously in medical malpractice and personal injury legal administration, life/health insurance for State Farm, and various retail roles including personal shopper. My passion at this time lies in the field of esoteric studies. I am also a Master Level Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki certified healer. I happen to be currently employed within a 9-5 career in cosmetology retail selling to licensed professionals part time.

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