It feels as though everyone is in a pessimistic rut lately so let’s attempt to alter the frequency. Maybe the provided underlined hyperlink text can point someone to that which is more harmonious.
I’m surrounded by a lot of “doom/fear” in podcasts right now, and as someone who is not burying her head in the sand I also don’t want to be the person who leaves others in a completely negative mental space where they exist in constant anxiety, depression, and other unhealthy ideations. I mean sure that certainly drives home and sells a product. Even astrologers use that tactic to scare people into indulgences or extracurricular services because I covered this months ago when I attempted social media via Twitter meeting someone who I could not reach about how we don’t have to “demonize” everything.
I went through a week or two of ranting about how the social media culture was abhorrently dis-eased with toxic censorship, convoluted mindspaces that create problems I could not assist others with if they did not wish to change, and off the beaten path corners which seemed like an unholy place that I just did not want to associate with thereby putting myself into a sort of “I’m not discoverable mystery realm.”
I’m here, but I don’t get click throughs, and I’m not sure if I care because I’m going back to a 9-5 job literally! It is what it is… An assorted admixture of comfort with discomfort! Being home is just not working for me either. How anyone does work from home or stay at home is beyond me. I need to have some other form of interaction than digital or I’m going to go bonkers to be perfectly frank.
One podcast today dealt with “trust.” Let’s say I have boundaries in life which after being “wronged” enough times I’ve learned there are limits with me when it comes to “trust.” I’m more aware than ever that I am surrounded by sociopaths and psychopaths as I age out of the 3D Earth little by little. My life coaches did not like this about me because I won’t swallow nor eat from their “Candy Land” cavity inducing rose colored glasses lies. I never had that game growing up so perhaps this says something.
I was taught to not accept candy from strangers without someone else or myself inspecting it before I just ingest it. I know that nature versus nurture, dog eat dog, and toxicity have inverted the inner as well as outer realities of many in the multiverse. A “cancer” can eat at it’s source and metastasize leaving a festering wound when we ignore it or refuse to attack it at its source.
The apolitical of me who says arguing left versus right no longer works because like in Kabbalah we’re really fighting against aspects of self through a shadow play with the ego, ID, persona, superego, etc. has not been capable as of yet in determining how to move completely from solitary in some aspects of how she goes through life. I can be a team player, but I also value self reliance and independence. With that comes a level of responsibility to self as well as other. I don’t get it right every time. Remember I said I’m not perfect! I’m also conflicted; I don’t want to become like that which I don’t agree with or feel as if I dislike.
I’m also not wanting to be assaulted by the online agent provacateur psyop where we join some sort of manipulated cult. This “internet” is not anything like the one when I first got online in the 90s where I was meeting “real” people before the rabid foaming at the mouth era of “deep fakes, bots, and other falsehoods.” Actually both my iPhone and laptop I’ve come to wonder about some of what is even in the app stores because it just looks abnormal some of what is found there. The world wide web is now a game of Halloween trick or treat where we may get tricked more often than treated!
Yes, I question the followers and “likes” of my blog posts also. How can I not when I’m realizing not everything is as it appears. I’m allowed to be wary the same way others may be towards me which is why I put a small image of myself on the sidebar of this blog. As much as I hate putting my image on this little part of cyberspace I figure it might make people a little less likely to think I’m a complete wyrd-oh! I don’t know other than that as a child maybe I was a little more able to make friends easier, but I don’t think so ultimately.
I was quite introverted, kept to myself, and selectively chose who I “let into my world.” I expected others to be equally as discerning and a lot less naive. Maybe expectations as they say are just improper to have. No, actually I don’t think I trusted easily growing up. I got picked on enough to learn to question the motives/intents of everyone I came into contact with. You had/have to earn my “trust.” Definitely a paradox with me around. Or maybe the warning should have been good luck as I grew up.
This goes back somewhere to those people who also threw gum in my hair on a bus ride home. No, I did not forget you! Yes, you left an impression on me about “humanity.” No, I did not do that kind of stuff to others. I usually came at them from another angle. Something verbal and psychologically abusive might leap out although I’ve tried to improve upon this with age.
Gum belongs only in a few locations; the mouth, the trash, or in the wrapper! Not on my head or my hair! Misplace it in the wrong location, and I’m going to get very testy with you! Look Leos happen to be very particular about the mane! Screw with it and face our wrath! For that matter I would not go playing with lions unless you want to risk something perhaps you shouldn’t.
This is a matter of principle and morals/ethics where I figure each person has to determine for themselves how far into the “evil” they want to really trek. As they say which wolf do you want to feed or allow yourself to become? Can you walk down the middle or rather go your own way? Something is definitely happening though when you look at groupthink beside the everyday echo chambers. No one is thinking for themselves and we sort of keep chasing our tails some days like cats/dogs. Maybe my hope or wish is that this part time job will help me further my goal to get off the internet if I’m kept busy elsewhere.
I’ve been so torn; do I want my online business or do I want the bleep off the IoT/IoB because I sense something pretty tyrannical about what is afoot. Unlike others I’ve not jumped into wearables, I’m not on social media except a sock puppet account on Facebook for my iPhone app games which I am trying to wean off of, and I don’t online date. I’m still kind of old school and frankly I still value that. And no we won’t be discussing my various views on finances either. This is that tug of war game where I’m deciding if I want to just let go of the rope because I’ll watch the other side drop to the ground due to the physics of gravity and the amount of “oomph” they put into pulling said rope.
I’ve been “scammed” through credit/debit, identity, and other factors making me suspicious. That means I don’t take well to the crypto scammers now nor in the future which usually ensues in me playing mind games back with various groups of people as I don’t like their “game.” I was raised by that logic which says if you mess with me I might mess with you back at least enough to frustrate or dissuade you from wasting your time on me. Burned enough to just not want to keep going through the same tired routines! Bitter no, but I’ve had enough!
So today I’m going to try to leave an ASMR which I don’t watch as often anymore because I finally broke my habit of binge watching for people to simply have some positive unwinding, healing, and to remember our mental health is important at all times so we need to back up for a bit to focus on our breath so that we successfully enter a calmer flow state. With this I’m doing a brief Arabic Part/Lot for our current Monday.
I’ll add a few garden photos as well because the lettuce, beans, and potatoes are bustling with basil starting to also take off. I’ve been impressed by the leaf patterns of the wildflowers at present since I’ve planted a variety of plants which will be songbird, edibles, and pollinator attractors. I’ve also acquired some mushrooms recently; probably not the edible kind. But to me putting some “nature” back in here actually helps us with our Root chakra remaining balanced.
I’m trying to keep my head above the water as the great granddaughter of a cosmetologist who worked as a hair stylist and survived the Great Depression era having worked for larger names like Clairol, Revlon, and such. The matriarchy of my DNA who I’ve repeatedly discussed as she was my inspiration to get my aesthetician’s cosmetology license.
I have haphazardly believed she is still there somewhere in spirit watching over me when my WW II veteran maternal grandfather passed which allowed for me to inherit my maternal ancestral records with her high school yearbook from 3 years before we had a global financial collapse and a World War erupt. Strange that I feel as if we did not learn from our his/her story so we could repeat our pasts.
I know it’s a form of hopium, but we all need something that also keeps us from spiraling into an abyss of darkness from which we never return. That faint nudging belief that I’ve landed this latest part time job I begin on Wednesday in cosmetology thanks to letting her be one of my beacons or inspirations for strength. If I need a female to look to it has been her who also helped raise me till age 5 when she passed on.
It is also because I am 42 remembering sitting in my mom’s lap, leaning over her shoulder, and crying at her funeral. Something formed with us as a bond that I just can’t myself fully put into words. Can a 5 year old or younger understand something better than her 42 year old self? I don’t know other than that I probably appear superstitious to some.
I’m going to look at the Arabic Part/Lot of Ancestral Heritage via the formula Ascendant plus Moon minus 8th House. This is an unusual spot. I’ve talked before about Magha nakshatra moving from the anaretic degree in Leo 29° to Virgo 0° which I refer to as zero point energy of Virgo as it also transitions from my 10th to 11th House.
Ancestral Heritage is at Pisces 0° or zero point energy of Pisces in my 6th House which is a Virgo ruled house. It has left the anaretic degree of Aquarius in my 5th House on the Arabic Part/Lot system. Stranger still is that my North Node is Virgo 11th House with a South Node of Pisces 5th House on the Western system previously written about.
I’ve said this I’m not worshiping the stars, I’m not a dogmatist, I see pattern recognition, and I decide if I want to work with it or against it. I’ve been studying this stuff for longer than the attempt at an online business or even trekking into the nonsense eccentric blog I’ve created. But what does this really look like because no one does the symbolism for the zero point degree so I usually have to go with the first degree making it not entirely even accurate.
Well we can begin to state that this would look like a Mercury ruled Earth element Virgo paired with a Neptune ruled water element Pisces in the association of work/job, health, pets, employees, and self improvement. When you have shortcomings how do you deal with them and furthermore if there is a collective or personal crisis such as illness, reversal of fortune, or facing adversity exactly how do you react in the face of them all?
This is what this speaks to because we’re focused on employment, training, those who serve us, and those who depend upon us. Do you endeavor to heal yourself, do you address what you wear everyday and if you needed a haircut, was your fur baby fed, and other daily “chores” make up this placement.
This degree has the awareness of the multifarious forms through which knowledge manifests deeply sensing the eternal realities that hide in passing forms. What is most difficult for the chart holder is to focus on any one thing for in its world energies flow together as formless and inexpressible. The way out of this frustration is to embrace them all and move with the passing shimmerings of each moment.
The Chandra Symbol for this degree is “A field of dandelions.” This degree has a joyful appreciation of the common and ordinary while understanding that all aspects of the human species shared reality have come to be due to having survived and outlived so many other ideas/ways of being that have been cast aside or minimized over time.
In other words there is an instinct for comprehending how the mainstream of society represents the strongest yet most persistent motivations of the race. To try to find and support what is most positive and spiritual in this is the goal of this degree. It is the Piscean sympathy shining forth most directly, spontaneously, and universally like the sunshine of countless stars in a galaxy of dandelions. Work with guardian angel Veuliah and daimon Sabnock.
Daimon Sabnock connects us with the Eight of Swords, Moon, Allspice, and Gemini. When you want to protect your home or astral temple from attacks you want to work with this daimon. As always if you’re working with Sabnock what you will begin to learn is how to take someone else’s nasty little attacks and return them to their sender as a form of defense. Essentually the goal here is that we should be learning/teaching not to be maliciously manipulating or harming others.
This degree sits on the fixed star of Enif in Pegasus the Flying Horse’s nose. The nature of Enif being that of Mars and Mercury usually combines to make for a high enterprise, ambitious, intuitive, and enthusiastic temperament. We should be careful, however, where we place our judgment which I think this caters back to the issue of “trust.”
As an aesthetician here is a spa ASMR from one of the channels I subscribe to. Have a great and relaxing Monday. I might take tomorrow of as a respite from blogging until Friday just so I can finalize what I need to before beginning my new part time job. I think everyone will be fine during this span of time! Also the next time someone says you can’t produce anything organic because they believe only in chemical agriculture we’re going to have a dispute.
I’ve been doing just fine organic gardening so maybe the problem is a lack of proper education in making the switch! Either out of ignorance, limited beliefs, or fear to change perhaps! All I know is food in the ground is not like a virtual reality game or a Star Trek hologram. It takes time requiring some patience which seems to be in short supply lately. 😊 I really can’t wait for my plants to produce the actual beans or flowers. I’m getting very antsy simply because I want to take photos of something colorful and beyond stems, leaves, and roots.
Tomatoes are under monitoring. Our buckwheat has overtaken them therefore I think we will be thinning shortly. I have not attempted photos because literally the roma tomatoes are dwarfed by a sea of buckwheat! This is what happens when you cover crop and return to planting other items in the bed. Some plants are invasive.
I also had a squirrel stand off recently. They keep bringing peanuts as I’ve said from someone feeding them to my garden to plant them. So as one scurried down the fence I walked over and had to have a face to face discussion with him which sent him back up the fence, turning to face me, twirling a peanut in his hands in front of me, and then leaving. He’ll be back! This is not over!
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