Teach Me Tuesdays: A Little Light in the Dark

“I started reading a book about mazes. I got lost in it.” – Anonymous

Trust me the months of self exploration in this blog and through my astrology business have been building into the most oddish of adventures I’ve ever taken. If you really want to decode this blog post I’d suggest you enjoy the underlined hyperlink text which annotates what I’m discovering today.


My mom put on a modern rendition of Ophelia the other day. I got this quirky idea because I’d been combing through the list of asteroids to look into Ophelia (171) only to discover I should look also at Gertrud (710) who is the Queen in this Shakespearean tale. I’m honestly not a fan of Shakespeare.

I recall high school and hating my time spent in Beowulf, Shakespeare, and the Canterbury Tales.

I was beyond happy when I got to read anything of my own choosing in that class finally which was much further into the year as a senior opting for Bram Stoker’s Dracula, Emily Bronte’s Wuthering Heights, and Mark Danielewski’s House of Leaves.

I had to play a role in the Canterbury Tales, and I truly did not want to even participate because I only wanted to be on stage in high school with dance. I am not a thespian thanks! Dancer yes; or was! I can only imagine the look on my face to my instructor. House of Leaves was a special one given to me by a friend as a Christmas gift.

She took me in the bookstore, handed me the book to thumb through, observed my reaction, bought it, and gifted me with it saying she had to know if I would like it. The minute I turned the first page I never put it down till I read it cover to cover! And then there was the music of Poe that I fell in love with also.

My family could not understand why I was constantly face shoved into the book like some sort of addict. At work people watched me turning it in circles reading parts of the text during the house exploration as it winds like a spiraling staircase going up/down.

I guess it’s because they don’t quite grasp the effect it has on some people. It’s something that people either love or hate with no in between. I fell into the love it category!

What that says about me I’ll leave to the audience because I know I’ll be judged for it simply due to what I choose to read or rather study. Please remember before you throw names out it takes one to know one!

I distinctly remember my step father’s commentary on observing me with that book! He probably doesn’t remember that conversation though over breakfast.

The thing about the above story is that the friend who gave me House of Leaves. Her name was Tiffany which means Theophanes through Ancient Greek. Two elements comprise the name. Theos (Divine, a deity, a God) and phaino (to appear, bring to light, show, uncover, reveal, and make known).

The name is a direct reference to epiphany and the manifestation of the Divine to a mere mortal. I keep an image from Breakfast at Tiffany’s in my bedroom on the wall near my wealth altar. Delphi saw the Theophania as an annual festival in spring to celebrate the return of Apollo from the winter quarters in Hyperborea.

People still wonder why I get into a tempest of soap box ranting over dogma, fundamentalism, and exoteric practices. If I listed every reason for why I don’t warm a pew anymore the list would be quite long!

You won’t find me worshiping in any church the way I used to because I grew up. I went my own way, and I chose another path. You can love someone who is different from you without agreeing with them.

I don’t agree with many who practice certain “religions” which I find different from spiritual or mystical practices being that some are far too orthodox and legalist. Hair splitting aside as we can all make puns about the practice. A trick that many employ in neural linguistic programming is to word smith their victim to death!

“I opened my journal but didn’t know which page to use. Write or left.” – Anonymous

Even the name Christosophia includes both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine imagery. Sophia as a Greek name for the feminine figure of Divine Wisdom in ancient Judaism became the early Christian view of the Christ as both the word (Logos) and wisdom (Sophia) of God/Goddess. Sophia has always been acknowledged by esoteric Christianity as a key to unlock Christian wisdom needed for our time.

Recognizing the Divine Feminine within a Christian tradition leads to a renewed vision of the sacredness of our natural world and the value of participating in a mystical experience. Develop the heart language to deeply and profoundly “feel” and then you can sense way beyond this material reality.

I’m one of those Audrey Hepburn fans having enjoyed Sabrina and Roman Holiday also. I’ve also spent time picking those apart over the years. I guarantee the feminist movement does not like any of these movies or themes because as I peruse the AI driven search results lately it’s more than readily apparent how culture is changing.

But then I loved the movie Snake Pit for it’s themes too. As much as I hate tell a lie vision and know it’s not always healthy for me sometimes it brings to light a lot of educational material or brain tingling hunches for me to investigate further.

This same name, Tiffany, is connected with the number 9 and our pineal gland. The belief being that the person is humane and selfless showing compassion, tolerance, idealism, and sensitivity.

The pineal gland while about the size of a pea is in the center of the brain in a tiny cave behind and above our pituitary gland which lies a little behind the root of our nose. Located directly behind the eyes attached to the third ventricle we know it as the chakra of the upper dantien.

Our ninth chakra is an interesting chakra in that it is in this chakra that all of one’s Christ abilities lie dormant waiting to be released and used in the outer and inner worlds. A great deal of work and energy is now being sent into physical reality to help humans open up and expand this energy center.

Gold symbolizes wealth used wisely, but it is also the symbol of good health. People who favor the color gold are optimistic. Tibetan Buddhists believe in 5 sacred stones known as the crystal for light, turquoise for infinity of sea and sky, coral for life and form, gold for the golden rays of the sun, and silver for the light of the moon.

Gold is intimately linked with Divinity and those gods associated with the Sun symbolizing wealth and success.

After all of that the reason I am going with the theme of Ophelia and Gertrude is that both represent the sexism and double standards found in the way we view the anima.

For example, Ophelia displays as the light and shadow of the Maiden while Queen Gertrude is the light and shadow of the Mother. Some find that Shakespeare’s use of female hysteria and insanity is full of significance.

Ophelia is displayed through a lens of appearance, gestures, and props. If dressed in white and wild flowers with her hair down with an ending of drowning this was meant to imply the sexual imagery of the anima when discordant.

Innocent blossoming turned into whorish contamination. The Green Woman has given away her flowers/herbs to symbolize the deflowering of herself. Further the dishevelled hair becomes seen through the lens of madness or a victim of rape.

I can’t quite say I agree with this interpretation per say, but I do know as a child I ran around with my hair disheveled simply because it’s naturally curly and was constantly tangled. Combing or brushing it often resulted in me being upset with my hair being pulled, and if you don’t properly detangle it you’re going to actually ruin one’s hair.

Split ends and breakage anyone. I’d rather it be left to dry natural than someone rip it out via comb or brush like some barbarian in the name of grooming and decorum. As someone who happily frolics in her own garden with flowers and herbs or shares their photos online I’d hardly profess I’m guano crazy or even the victim of rape unless it’s mind rape which I’d factor many of us suffer from.

We all consume some rather peculiar things be they through tell a lie vision, computers, video games, books, or common food and drink. Hamlet has a twisted anima he is gripping with by spurring both his mother and Ophelia. It’s a chance to see how men treat their unconscious Divine Feminine by forcing them into the shadow and then refusing to work upon their dis-ease.

The Maiden should embody innocence and growth where the journey of idealistic hope begins. When we shove her into the shadow we make the Divine Feminine powerless and steal her agency. The Mother, however, should embody nurturing, love, and gentle governance yet when shoved into the shadow we find overbearing possessiveness, oppression, and literal or symbolic driving of one’s child away.

Solar Arc SAD Chart for Asteroid Ophelia and Gertrud

If you plop these two asteroids into your astrology chart you will begin to unfold the picture of how this plays out within your own life whether you are conscious or unconscious of it occurring. However, remaining unconscious of such is actually in my eyes not the most healthy or wholistic way to get along in one’s life. So you will see why I’m such a die hard fan of esotericism and out of the box exploration of these themes.

I’m using the Solar Arc Direction because it highlights shifts in our aspected placements such as when artistic projects receive rewarding recognition or emotional needs must be shifted. You will notice that in my chart Ophelia and Gertrud actually are essentially neighbors more or less.

Natal Ophelia was in my 4th House finishing the final degrees of Capricorn retrograde with Gertrud in Aquarius also retrograde. They’ve now moved towards the 5th House of Pisces where my South Node also resides in Western astrology.

4th House as the roots of identity shows the hidden potentials and family drama influenced by the Divine Feminine via emotions, children, and womanhood yet the 5th House is the inner child influencing pleasure, happiness, and sources of joy.

So we find Ophelia in Pisces at 8° opposing Venus, biquintile Mars, and sesquiquadrate Saturn. Gertrud is in Pisces at 19° opposing Mercury. Asteroids Ophelia and Gertrud are members of the Themis family in astronomy.

These degrees do have something of a peculiarity to them. Patterns here may emerge within the psyche where one needs to integrate Neptunian responsibility of not falling victim to the addictions of drugs or sex. These placements may suggest clairvoyance, but one should never get lost in wishful thinking that leads to deception.

If we learn to accept our own nature and develop self forgiveness we stop comparing self with other looking for illusory ideals of perfection. It is only through this that one finds freedom/liberation and their pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. 3/4 of humanity is instead trying to live up to self imposed illusions that cause inferiority complexes, guilt trips, and phobias.

Both degrees are best displayed as follows for those interested. The chart holder knows that when we can really see negativity clearly, see into the inner workings of our own illusions, we are on the road to clearing them. They’re willing to have intimate contact with all kinds of discord going into the deepest subtlest layers of the structure of these things moving progressively toward a complete healing of them.

The Chandra Symbol for this degree is “A gypsy peasant woman sings a mournful chant.” To give voice to all the sorrow and suffering of our soul is to begin the process of releasing it. This degree feels there is energy trapped in the self which needs to come out.

It is an energy of a toxic sort which can be alleviated through expressing it. It is because we do not deeply and completely embrace our pain that it stays with us. On the other hand if we embrace it without letting go of it we will continue to retain it. The magic is in the full embrace and the full realization of the nature of our feeling that finally allows us to accept it relaxing out of it.

And as we allow ourselves to empathize with others expressing their pain ours can be released simultaneously with theirs. Knowing that others deeply and intuitively understand what we are feeling is a way of healing unto itself. Work with guardian angel Daniel and daimon Furcas.

Daimon Furcas connects to the Six of Wands, Saturn, Leo, and Cinquefoil. One of those all around daimons who teaches astronomy, logic, ethics, astrology, and cheiromancy. Usually Furcas also teaches about potent herbs/stones and gives one charisma.

I legitimately read online that one should work with this daimon to learn to read natal charts, palms, and to develop clairvoyant skills. With a warning that if you don’t take the lesson seriously Furcas will give you a stern smack down. Needless to say I busted out laughing hysterically at this description.

The chart holder emanates the energy of emotional healing helping others to clear traumas and other heavy frequencies out of their astral body. It tends to do this with little conscious awareness of what it is doing, but the result is helping others to become more in touch with their inner self in a soft gentle manner which brings renewal and reconnection with the light of spirit.

The Chandra Symbol for this degree is “Palm trees laden with dates.” Here is immense sweetness and rich nourishment flourishing in the desert. This degree carries within itself a wondrous abundance that manifests in may different forms such as intuitive insight, understanding, compassion, and the ability to uplift others.

All this degree needs to do is to distribute these gifts, to not repress them, or question their value, but simply to share what the spiritual light has provided. Work with guardian angel Umabel and daimon Zagan.

Daimon Zagan connects to the Eight of Wands, Sun, Sunflower (seeds), and Sagittarius. A great daimon for making a person wise in many various topics. You can read about this guardian angel and Zagan also in a previous blog post.

There is one degree only that falls upon a fixed star as we close this trek out. We’re exploring Skat in Aquarius’s shin bone. Transcribed from Arabic Scheat Edeleu it then became Al Shi’at meaning a Wish. The delta Aquarids around July 14th through August 18th issue near this fixed star. Kabbalists associate it with the Hebrew letter Nun and the tarot trump Temperance.

Have a contemplative and well informed Tuesday everyone! Hopefully it is full of blessings. ˖⁺。˚⋆˙♥️

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I am a licensed aesthetician (#1446048 Expires October 2023 Valedictorian) who has worked previously in medical malpractice and personal injury legal administration, life/health insurance for State Farm, and various retail roles including personal shopper. My passion at this time lies in the field of esoteric studies. I am also a Master Level Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki certified healer. I happen to be currently employed within a 9-5 career in cosmetology retail selling to licensed professionals part time.

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