“The most important thing I have done is to combine something esoteric with a practical issue that affects many people.”
- Benoit Mandelbrot
“Many people suffer from the fear of finding oneself alone, and so they don’t find themselves at all.”
“When you write about esoteric things, it can be way out there.”
- James Van Praagh
“In mystical traditions, it is one’s own readiness that makes experiences exoteric or esoteric. The secret isn’t that you’re not being told. The secret is that you’re not able to hear.”
- Ram Dass
“I’m too busy working on my own grass to notice if yours is greener.”
“A time comes when it isn’t enough to read about Buddha, we wish to have that happen to ourselves. That’s when we move from the exoteric to the esoteric, from religion to mysticism.”
- Frederick Lenz
“Psychology claims that when you can’t sleep at night, you are actually awake in someone’s dream.”
Sometimes I just put filler and fluff in here. I’m hoping that it will interest someone besides myself, but I could be entirely incorrect on such pursuits. Either way I’ve left the usual underlined hyperlink text to warp drive you to various locales.
I kind of had another one of those what to publish moments so I decided to attach this one to my recent tarot reading and previous blog post I composed about Virgo.
I simply ran an Age Harmonic chart for the fixed star Spica curious as to where the wheat sheaf/branch was presently in an offhand manner of filling the gap. Someone can tell me if it’s confirmation bias or a synchronicity later when they observe the quirks of what has manifested in my life experiences.
Most everyone seems to misinterpret a lot of the esoteric or even astrology’s purpose. In Virgo, for example, which resonates perhaps to the theme of the tarot trump of the Hermit there is a purpose found of integrating with the self. It is here that we seek a new beginning, a break from tradition, and new forms of life that leave behind our sense of helplessness.
All forms are temporary and transitory so we’re often seeking love through manners that may not always be healthy. The ultimate life goal being to learn unconditional love or love without attachment. This is the meaning often associated with spiritual or higher love. Virgo asks that we freely share the qualities we keep hidden from others.
Ultimately this is the only zodiacal sign represented by the Divine Feminine often representing creativity when in the Maiden aspect, nurturing in the Mother aspect, and intelligent yet sometimes pedantic in the Crone aspect. It is also the zodiacal sign known to govern our hands, abdomen/intestines, spleen, and nervous system.
This would definitely match much of my more recent health concerns including neuropathy post foot fracture/surgery. And as stated there is that belief for some of us albeit is not widely accepted that Magha nakshatra ruled by Ketu with Regulus due to precession of the equinoxes has transpired to zero point Virgo.
Hinduism often identified Spica not as a wheat sheaf, but rather as Citra with the symbolism of a bright lamp or even a pearl. Around 300 BC it is believed that Alexandrian Timochares observed Spica with Regulus and 150 years later Hipparchos would be indebted to the discovery whereupon precession of the equinoxes became at least a bit more widely accepted.
Spica in my Age Harmonic chart aligns itself in the 5th House of Leo at 11° biquintile Mercury and opposing Neptune. As I enter my 43rd year on Earth we find that this chart explores the areas of rectification. Kabbalists would refer to this as one’s personal tikkun.
For those a bit more familiar with Tohu during creation they would comprehend that this means one must elevate or ascend to a degree of holiness often through proper intention in mystical meditation, during prayer, or while fulfilling a mitzvot.
Essentially if sin is missing one’s mark to use an archery term one would seek to purify any transgression towards a merit. The goal being restoration to a proper cosmic order rather than allowing impurity to remain.
But these could become abstract arguments not worth getting too involved in for most of us. The reason being we would then fall into the online debates of gap, ruin, and reconstruction theories that are like the commentary one has still today with those who espouse flat Earth all over the world wide web that I vehemently avoid like the plague. I just don’t want to even waste energy in those arenas of discourse.
On another hand though we could apply this to our lives. For example, over the expanse of a lifetime on Earth we could experience seasons of blight, drought, and lack on a personal level be that psychologically, emotionally, financially, or spiritually. Other times we might experience moments where we feel exceedingly abundant, blessed, and grateful.
If we were to really grasp this we’d see that tohu describes the states of consciousness known as confusion and argumentativeness especially when we’re gripped with finding anything to be meaningless. With bohu we experience emptiness and the void essentially implying what we feel via our emotional body is destitute as if there is no return on our investments in life.
This is where we get the phrase all is vanity often found in Ecclesiastes. It is to enter a state of believing all effort in life is one of futility. Potentially one enters nihilism.
Spica for me could be best summed up as the following. I enjoy expressing my ideas creatively not simply understanding the mechanics of how I associate details in life or make decisions regarding the path I walk. Rather I avoid ego battles by being upfront and direct to reduce risk of being misunderstood.
The ego I’ve chosen to develop is mastered through spiritual gifts, compassion, idealism, and creative talents in writing, dance, fashion, and music.
When the chart holder tries to control anything they find that they lose the power of being in the moment and true to themselves. They need to give up control and allow whatever needs to to flow to stream out of them. This can be scary to do, and if they pull back in midstream and attempt to reassert control they will find themselves stuck in an endless loop. Trust in the deepest layer of creative urges is the way out of the problem.
The Chandra symbol for this degree is “A boy removing a thorn from his foot.” Something is bothering the chart holder and they’re trying to understand it. This may be something they’re angry about or something they can’t stop thinking about. It’s impeding their forward motion. There’s a need to stop what they’re doing and investigate.
The stopping and focusing on one specific thing of this symbol is the opposite of moving forward with multiple areas of focus. To remove the thorn the chart holder may have to dig deeper. They may be writing all these stories because they are trying to keep themselves so busy that they can avoid the pain of the thorn.
In this degree there is always something the chart holder is very sensitive to and a need to locate as well as understand that sensitivity. Something is wanting to come out of them so allow it to do so. Work with guardian angel Harahel and daimon Orias.
Daimon Orias is connected with the Six of Cups, Moon, Scorpio, and Sealwort (Solomon’s Seal). This daimon is great for transformation of one’s physical self by acting as a personal trainer for one’s will to assist them in getting phyiscally fit/healthy.
If you’re looking for the motivation to eat healthy foods, take up an exercise routine, or upgrade your appearance then working with Orias is a plus. Other special areas where you might be assisted by Orias fall into learning the virtues of the planets and stars through the study of astrology as well as gaining respect in securing positions of high esteem.
This degree should work with Dragon Blood Jasper renewing their enjoyment of nature, relaxation, and carefree play while remembering to make time to enjoy the simple joys found in daily life. The affirmation is at this moment I am free, elated, and contented with myself.
Have a felicitous Friday! Much love and zaniness being sent your way. I tried to proofread, but am again very tired after a long week. Probably why I’ve been sleeping so hard most nights recently. Happens when you’re working more than one job plus other responsibilities. 🤗💖
PS: I had a small panic attack today when I realized I’m this huge freedom advocate especially as a free speech believer, but felt self conscious about my blog in terms of what I write/express. I realized I was feeling a need to self censor just to people please everyone else. Some days I dislike my brain/emotions because I swear I feel like I’m a hot mess. Is this even normal or have I lost my sanity?! Insert foot in mouth.
It’s worse when someone else encourages you to keep writing, and you’re in harsh self critique mode. Don’t ask you don’t want to know.