Wisdom Wednesday’s: The Most High via the Quran

87 – The Most High

I mentioned previously that I was attempting to read from a translation to English of the Quran. What I know from experience is that translation and transliteration are never quite the same things so in this confusion can arise. Hopefully I do not mess this up; fingers crossed! Having finished both the Bible and the Tao this is my next journey, and maybe one day I will attempt part of the Vedas. That is a further off goal!

I also chose this verse because I believe it touches on areas that would be good to gain a higher perspective or understanding from. I greatly welcome further commentary. This is no assault on any other person’s interpretation. I simply believe many get lost in the exoteric and forget that any and all spiritual texts from which religions form their foundations have an esoteric level we must graduate to.

Also please forgive my pronoun usage as this is not an affront to anyone and no harm is meant by this. I am referencing concepts of divine masculine and divine feminine within consciousness. I do not wish to be “flamed, flagged, or trolled” by anyone who feels I have unintentionally attacked them so I hope you will be understanding. I expect something though because I’ve been an online content creator since I graduated high school so I’ve seen a lifetime’s share already. Trust me you don’t want to know.

An example of this would be found in Vedic philosophy which states the masculine is defined as a preference for meaning or seeking the higher more abstract ideas (knowledge, beauty, renunciation, power, fame, and wealth) while the feminine is defined as a preference for pleasure or seeking the pure and unspoiled via relationships (reverence, servitude, friendship, parental affection, and conjugal love). These qualities are found in how we relate to self and other.

Glorify the name of your Lord, most high,
Who creates and proportions,
Who determines and directs,
Who brings out the pastures
Then reduces them to rusty rubbish.

  • Lord refers to spiritual man/woman who is ruler of him/her self, of his/her faculties, and of the world. Lord consciousness is one of ascendancy. When any one of us enters into our lordship we rule our mind. We take ownership over our selves, our thoughts, our body, our environment, and all creatures or creations of the Earth.
  • Earth consciousness represents the chaos of our wandering mind. This is where we find duality both external found in nature around us and internal within ourselves. The Bible tends to allegorize this via animals going in pairs into Noah’s ark. It implies the starting point in our meditation.

We shall make you recite (the Quran)
So that you will not forget it,
Unless God may please.
He knows the visible
And knows what is hidden.

  • Visible likely refers to the small 10% of consciousness or mind above the surface (Conscious Mind/Drives).
  • Hidden would thus infer the 90% of consciousness or mind below the surface (Subconscious or Unconscious Mind/Drives).
  • If the Subconscious or Unconscious Mind/Drives direct your life you have no choice and go through life believing in concepts such as being cursed by bad luck/fate. Housed here is the entire collection of your habitual thoughts, behaviors, and actions. Conscious Mind/Drives would be where choice exists.
  • Just because you are not consciously aware of this in your life does not nullify the truth that your Subconscious or Unconscious Mind/Drives has been in the driver’s seat for most of your life at the wheel of your vehicle calling all the shots.

We shall take you slowly towards ease.
So remind them
If reminder is profitable:
Those who fear will understand.

  • Fear implies reverence or respect for the law of God or the I AM. The whole of your inner consciousness or inner source of life should be dedicated to your I AM.

Only the wretch will turn aside,
Who will burn
In the terrible fire,
In which he will neither die nor live.

  • This is not hellfire and brimstone or a World War scenario. I do not know why other than for money people even push such ideas as it irks me to no end! I spend more time navigating “strange” topics online than is necessary which people believe in. Fire consciousness is after Water and Air consciousness. The sound of running water during meditation represents your cleansing away any confusion of your chaotic mind which only occurs when one meditates on peace within. Air consciousness is more akin to brainwave states. Air consciousness can slow the brain to theta or delta waves.
  • I happen to use entrainment for this sometimes even during sleep as I have a very noisy mind that is too analytical to bypass! It is really obnoxious at times dealing with my mind. This may not work for others, but initially I found early on I would sometimes fall asleep very easy during entrainment sessions after a certain point in with the best intentions laid to stay awake. Therefore I am a constant work in progress! And as finances are tight right now I have not been as capable of supporting content creators as I would like to for new content they produce. I need to put my eye doctor first actually because vision is very important, and I need new glasses desperately!

Surely he will succeed
Who grows in goodness,
And recites the name of his Lord
And serves with devotion.

  • The best way for me to explain devotion may be bhakti yoga. Loving recollection of God in life can create oneness with the Divine. Love is the most powerful or irresistible of human emotions and accessible to everyone. We all love someone or something with great fervor which makes us forget ourselves and our whole attention becomes devoted to that particular object of our adoration. The ego loses its hold over us as we focus on our beloved’s welfare more than that of our own leading to a fruitful spiritual life.

But no, you prefer the life of the world,
Though the life to come
Is better and abiding.
This is surely in the earlier Books,
The Books of Abraham and Moses.

  • The life to come can be an allegory for transcendence, renewed/cosmic consciousness, or being born again. Most get trapped in materialism and lower consciousness content to remain here.
  • Abraham/Abram as in Brahma.



  • Moses as in a level of consciousness which is concerned with morality that serves a purpose in disciplining one’s thoughts acting as preparation for spiritual law (life/creative intelligence and wholeness).

One can find this in the divine feminine archetypes as well if they are Goddess centered in their form of worship. You simply have to choose a path that suits you best for your particular preferences or prerogatives. I tend to oscillate in life a lot which I like to blame on some astrologer’s telling me I was born on a cusp of oscillation making me more in flow between the two. And this always causes friction with those wanting to dictate how I should study or be spiritual. Which makes me wonder if they believe I am doing it all wrong.


Teach Me Tuesdays: North Node and South Node

Sanskrit Karman – Act, Action, and Performance

When discussing astrology whether it is tropical or sidereal both take into account a fictional or imaginary planet or node. For me personally I believe a lot of time could be spent here alone in study. On tropical astrology it is widely different than when I look at sidereal actually for myself. While it may seem as if I suffer self absorption in how often I study my own charts it is quite the opposite, and my explanation for my logic may fall on deaf ears. I can not make everyone like me after all. My time spent in studying my own astrology charts as well as those of others is the fact that I believe in the phrase “know thyself” both strengths and weaknesses. It is an actionable goal then to take that knowledge and improve one’s self with it.

I have been itching to do this study/post. It is long, but I believe worth your time.

So if you believe I suffer narcissism I ask you to reconsider your stance and instead question if it is not my desire to better myself that makes me involved in studying my natal charts or the charts of others to help them improve their lot in life. Lately it is very easy to project labels onto others and play finger pointing blame games due to cancel culture. We learn best by example and thus we are picking up negative habits without conscious awareness. Ironic this act shows three fingers point back at the accuser of the wrong. That should warrant caution in who you attack! What I instead see is people slinging snow balls at each other not in an act of play, but in an act of war with severe consequences for those actions and beliefs.

There are are two lunar nodes in tropical astrology acting as an intersection between the ecliptic and the orbit of the Moon. These nodes deal with your spiritual journey of your soul past, present, and future holding the keys to lessons you learned or are yet to learn. This is important within karmic astrology for those who believe in reincarnation as well as those who wish to treat these nodes as their past and future in this present lifetime.

The North Node reveals your soul journey towards growth! Here we find the traits you desire to develop in this incarnation to grow the most. Yet this process is not easy. In the natal chart your North Node indicates the challenges and struggles of the first part of your life which gets easier after the age of 30. The South Node represents your past showing your karmic strengths where you will usually excel as you have a lot of experience already here. You are very comfortable in this placement, but this doesn’t help you grow. Hence why we are told to step out of our comfort zones. You are supposed to focus on your North Node despite the strong pull to fall back on the South Node. The lunar nodes spend in each sign approximately 18 months with an orbital period is 18.6 years. They are directly opposite each other and they are always retrograde.

If I was to look at my mom’s tropical chart and compare it to mine we would find my mom has her North Node in Libra with the South Node in Aries while I have my North Node in Virgo and my South Node in Pisces. I am not going to explore the houses at this time, but perhaps we can explore that at a later time and date. I picked this combination because I was named after my mom and our birthdays are only three days apart. People also have a tendency to confuse us for sisters which is to her benefit as it is a compliment that she still looks younger than her age!

Libra North Node vs Aries South Node:

Libra to Aries Polarity is About Balancing Me and We

Libra Keywords: partnership, marriage, and learning they do not need to do everything alone because others are here and in their life to help them

Aries Keywords: self-sufficiency, independence, and believes they do not need help from others as they are competent in anything they set out to accomplish

My mom’s life mission this incarnation is to learn that her actions and everything said by her affects the people around her while she can be utterly oblivious to the impact this has on another. In fact she may not care how it affects those around her putting her on the wrong trajectory. By becoming entirely aware and completely considerate of her actions and words she will better be able to build the friendships and the partnerships that are necessary to her overall growth in this life.

Partnerships and relationships will not come to her while stagnated in her Aries South Node way of doing things. When she learns to think less about herself and more about the needs of others she begins to attract many people into her life who will help her, bless her, and who make her life so much easier for her to live. This requires her to stop being self-centered and selfish. Which I think she has accomplished.

Virgo North Node vs Pisces South Node:

Virgo  to Pisces Polarity is About Balancing Analytical Mind and The Dreamer

Virgo Keywords: helping those weaker or who do not know how to do things for themselves, teaching, serving others fulfills my life

Pisces Keywords: less structure and routine, less selflessness or sacrifice of one’s wants/needs, and less focus on healing others

This incarnation for me is full of an endless pursuit where I continually serve other people and want to make them happy. With the North Node in Virgo I have somewhat of a selfless quality where I will give a lot of myself to the world around me because I do not find value in myself unless I help others. Structure and routine are vital to me. I need to have structure and routines in my life to stay sane.

Therefore I prefer to plan my life accordingly and may not be spontaneous. For example, if someone calls me up right now to say, “Hey, let’s go have XYZ,” I tend to refuse because the event wasn’t planned ahead of time and I may have something else to attend to. And I do realize this can be really annoying! My apologies again. You will find I apologize a lot also. A habit I picked up somewhere and have not let go of! I have had people point this out to me a lot to make me conscious of the fact.

Now let us look at this through the lens of sidereal astrology. I am born into Magha as mentioned in previous blog posts and this will be of importance for myself with regards to Ketu who I am continuously learning about. It is almost a strange obsession now. And this makes sense for those following my blog who also noticed my mention previously of my studies on Jupiter in my astrology chart. You will see how this shapes my present goals and where I need help.

Wisdom Wednesdays: Making the Unconscious Mind Conscious

The constellations governed by Ketu are Ashwini, Magha, and Moola. Through Vedic astrology we find the North Node is known as Rahu and the South Node is known as Ketu. The South Node or Ketu is often considered to be a point of difficult karma from one’s past life where one has reaped the results of a selfish and egotistical set of deeds in their past. The higher equivalent of Ketu represents a tendency towards moksha or liberation with mastery of secret mysterious knowledge.

Rahu and Ketu are famous for very unexpected outcomes. Both Rahu and Ketu are 180 degrees apart. The professions advised for Ketu include, but are not limited to magician, medical nurse or doctor, and astrologer. Rahu and Ketu indicate our karmic and spiritual influence in the natal chart. I have seen by some allotted the sign Sagittarius as the house of exaltation for Ketu while others believe Ketu to be exalted via Scorpio. Debilitation may be found in Gemini or Taurus. Ketu is considered strongest within Jupiter and known for spirituality.

Any person influenced by Ketu will be gifted with spiritual achievement with strong interests towards religion and secret awareness of supernatural powers or paranormal related subjects. These individuals may have great healing power. Periods allotted generally for a Ketu Mahadasha is seven years. When Ketu is placed favorably in any natal chart it brings a lot of luxury, wisdom, and intuition to that individual. If unfavorable Ketu is prone to causing unnecessary depression, lack of concentration, and unreasonable anxiety.

My mom has her Ketu in Aries with her Rahu in Libra while I have my Ketu in Aquarius and my Rahu in Leo.

Ketu in Aries vs Rahu in Libra:

Looking at the Dragons Head or Tail is Like Flipping a Coin

Aries Keywords: self, ego, physical body, perceptions of self by others, and paternal grandparents

Libra Keywords: romantic relationships, business partnerships, equal exchanges between two people, maternal grandparents, nieces, and nephews

Success comes when my mom accepts situations that keep showing up in her life such as a call to action, competitiveness, assertiveness, and leadership gracefully rather than begrudgingly. This is because she is well versed at following her instincts. As soon as she refrains from trying to avoid these situations she will create situations which are peaceful, co-creative, and harmonious! She excels at being tactful, honest, diplomatic, and a stellar mediator. She must learn that action and leadership are to be taken on when required and that one must risk some people not “liking” them in life.

Ketu in Aquarius vs Rahu in Leo:

Looking at the Dragons Head or Tail is Like Looking at an Ouroboros

Leo Keywords: spiritual beliefs, teaching, publishing, broadcasting, short/long distance travel, father, in-laws, and step-children

Aquarius Keywords: communication, listening, learning, work performed with the hands, siblings, neighbors, and cousins

I am that person who knows how to get ahead in society and may seem to others as a quirky scientist conducting bizarre experiments at large. I am more inclined to be laughed at or see my ideas rejected by others who won’t appreciate them or me until years later. Ketu wants me to brood about the collective and networks, but the Universe has a sense of humor and my life always go awry.

You can find me rejected for my contributions thus pushed towards Rahu in Leo where I must shine alone only as an individual. I toggle emotional and intellectual expression and am forced to step into the limelight whether I like it or not. In this role I am to accept everyone projecting their love and hate combined on me.

Do whatever it is I excel at while I embrace my emotional outbursts as the collective will then project their own stuff onto me positive and negative polarity while I have to somehow learn to not take it personally and realize doing this in fact helps to heal collective wounds as I am great at being the example of not allowing my ego to be fed by the opinions of another as I do not suffer much when I am being criticized. Although I believe I need to work on this. I still feel a bit wounded when I am excessively unappreciated or under valued by others! I imagine that is part of being human.

Jupiter is in my 10th House whether it is tropical or sidereal astrology which helps me advance my career. I can have a bright career and become very successful at what I do. I must guard against arrogance and being overly status oriented. I have a tendency towards leadership roles or my life may play out as a teacher or a hairdresser/cosmetologist for examples.

You will find this placement makes me ambitious and career focused. It is also common to find that I will have high moral standards, but as with anything it is best to maintain detachment. Ketu likes to remove certain benefits to keep one in check as I like to call it through liberating them from their ego. Many see Ketu as a malefic which it is not. Ketu simply is a bit of a strict teacher in life and many dislike this while others such as myself grow to love Ketu for the blessings we have received!

Hopefully I did pretty good at explaining these concepts, however, if you have questions please leave me a comment so I can assist you with answers. As I have stated I believe one could study this topic for quite some time and find a wealth of new perspective as long as they remain open minded to accept new opinions in the realm of astrology instead of closed off or threatened by something different.

Manifestation Mondays: What are Your Plans for Achieving Perfection?

Perfectionism is an overrated concept!

I saw this prompt today for journaling, and I wanted to tackle it because I have been told I have a perfectionism complex I need to work on. And part of being vulnerable is exposing your own weaknesses and whatever level of growth you are at in trying to work with them.

After some interesting personal experiences firsthand with my inner critic I actually no longer strive for perfection. I simply strive to do my best. There are two specific issues of perfectionism that occurred in my life that taught me there is actually a reason sometimes for not always having to achieve perfection per say.

One was in beauty school. During our sojourn through written/book courses and hands on experience we were forewarned that our instructors were notorious for getting way off the curriculum. By this I mean my graduation date just like obtaining my Associate’s Degree in Office Technology and Legal Administration miraculously fell on my birthday. This was not planned and has to do with my enrollment dates as well as the length of the programs I enrolled in.

I found out if I wanted to graduate beauty school on that date I was needing to test out of five chapters of course work. This sounds simple enough until three of those chapters are what you were cautioned will be the hardest in your program. That is one chapter anatomy/physiology and two chapters of cosmetic chemistry. To boot the school just purchased new books from Milady the publishing company and these books have entirely different information provided. The test questions ask for answers that are not found in the book your tuition paid for. I wanted to scream! It was as if what I studied was an utter waste of my time which was already precious to me and felt like an exercise in abject futility.

At this same era of life I was a department lead/manager for a cosmetic department in a local drugstore where I live who attended night school 20 hrs a week and worked 30 hrs a week after class working overnight to throw my department’s truck or as a night stocker while the rest of my team worked days focused on sales and customer service. That means 50 hour weeks are put into a job and education on graveyard shift essentially. School ran 5:00 – 10:00 PM CST and I worked midnight to 8:00 AM CST.

Needless to say I was in my worst condition ever. I was usually sleep deprived because the schedule actually did not vibe with me at all. I was often getting sick with allergies or bacterial/viral infections as my diet was unhealthy convenience foods. That week I had to test out to graduate on time my perfectionism and ambition got the worst of me. I studied my behind off and went on nearly no sleep for that week. If you know what happens to someone sleep deprived long enough you know where this ends. You put your health at risk and technically others considering various factors like operating a vehicle to go to and fro from locations.

Was it worth it? Well I had to beg to get anatomy/physiology as an open book test and borrow the book from a classmate. My beauty school wanted to charge me for the new book and tack this onto my tuition loans. Excuse me! Can you loan me a book for one test or is that too much to ask? Just saying! I broke down crying after my chemistry tests scored a measly 70 because I wanted to re-take them. I do not accept less than a “B” of myself. My instructor told me this level of perfectionism complex kills people. I went in post exams for a back treatment service I was stressed and distraught. A back massage/skin treatment sounded absolutely heaven at this point.

As luck would have it I fell asleep on our clinic floor during my back treatment on the TDLR clock. I am clocking hours and sleeping on the school’s dime. I wake up, look at the clock on the wall reading 8:00 PM CST, freak out because I realize where are my clothes as I am in a spa wrap, and tell my classmates to never let me sleep for 3 hours like that again to which I am told this was because I was not looking out for myself so everyone left me to finally get some well deserved rest.

I graduated Valedictorian, but I also pushed myself to limits I won’t ever again. It was the first period in my life I was having panic attacks which I never had before in my life. So when anyone asks me “What are your plans for achieving perfection?” my response is I have no plans for achieving perfection. I will do my best, but I am willing to accept what is reality as I am only human and my well being matters more than unrealistic goal posts. This is not limited beliefs. This is recognizing and knowing your strengths and weaknesses while keeping my eye on a manageable workable goal.

Congratulations! I learned a lot and am not sure I want to repeat this anytime soon. LOL Yes, I blurred my name (Renee) out. I am weird like that about the internet. Apologies!

My family and friends never told me I needed to be perfect. They never told me I had to be Valedictorian to make them happy. I was listening to my inner critic who always expected “exceeds expectations” and any less was failure and unforgivable. A similar lesson was people pleasing gone wrong.

It was as a cashier when I let my job dictate my health to me. Attendance was good, but the one time I called out sick I got guilt tripped. So I went to work sick and as I was checking out a customer when I nearly passed out from dehydration a dairy department co-worker in the line behind me luckily realized and caught me before I hit the floor.

I will not go into all the details of that story. I think both of these instances prove a point about the risks of ingraining into consciousness the other extreme of teaching someone they are a super hero or invincible or even that anything is possible. These ideologies must maintain some grounding in reality and not be escapist airy fairy deception. We truly have to find a middle ground here and temper what we ask of ourselves or others in life.

This actually can apply to so many areas of life as well. School or work performance is only one area. We can idealize and destroy portions of life elsewhere by expecting perfection such as in marriages, products or services we purchase, physical appearance (this can damage self esteem), and solutions to perceived problems we face. You have to accept me with some flaws!

I leave you with the following quote:

Sincerely, Renee

Sign Spotlight Sundays: Take the Bull by the Horns Taurus

Taurus – April 20th through May 20th

The material forms of creation and incarnated expression make up the sign of Taurus contributing illumination upon all initiates.

This sign is all about being grounded in the body and feeling the sensations of the world around us. This sign is often noted for an ardent desire for the myriad material rewards that come via physical incarnation and constant worldly adventures one takes part in. The second initiation, however, for this sign is the sudden removal or disappearance of the world of glamour in the binding energy of illumination.

The emotional desire nature in the sign of Taurus is concerned with an initial impact of energy upon forms of energy affecting the soul. The dual relationship between energy/matter and mind/energy is at play here. The mantra for this sign is “I see and when the eye is opened all is light.” The eye of vision within the individuated human must likewise open in response to this cosmic light.

Taurus has two rulers found via Venus (exoteric) and Vulcan (esoteric). Venus as powerful energy of desire or romantic love can become a loving energy that vibes more sensuous and Earthy. Vulcan as archetypal blacksmith of the Gods shapes or fashions substance by taking physical matter from light and placing it within the heat of his furnace.

From within esoteric Judaism and Christianity we see this best in the month of Iyar. Kabbalah indicates an emphasis here on the natural healing when humans should rectify their animal soul or refine their innate character traits. Iyar acts as a month of introspection for the sake of improving one’s self. This also has to do with the power of mind or thought. They must guard against becoming selfish, egotistical, and so focused upon themselves or their desires that they retain a reputation of being selfish materialists.

The idiom to take the bull by the horns is in reference to approaching, confronting, and actually dealing with our problems or difficult situations directly with clear actionable confidence!

The bull as a spirit animal or even totem animal holds a revered position amongst many cultures. Examples of this exist in Texas where the bull symbol was elevated via longhorn cattle to lofty heights. The Longhorn as the symbol of the Longhorns or official sports team is commonly seen at the University of Texas at Austin. This symbol stands for amazing qualities such as security, abundance, determination, sustenance, strength, virility, and peacefulness.

The bull holds a central place in the Hindu religion where it has been depicted in numerous texts to represent mysticism and philosophical power. Hindus believe that the bull Nandi is the celestial being that guards the pathways of heaven. Nandi is revered as one of the three main gods of the Hindu religion and is erected in front of all Shiva temples standing guard to ward off evil.

Judaism shows the bull as an animal of thanksgiving. Meanwhile in Chinese traditions the bull stands for motivation, strong will, perseverance, and hard work.

Celtic cultures regard the bull as a symbol of fertility to be invoked when they wanted to enhance procreation among newly married couples. A Celtic clan was judged by how many cattle they owned. Bulls were particularly valued and considered a luxury or a sign of how rich/poor one was.

Mother Earth as a feminine planet and the bull as a masculine energy to some Native American cultures implied a bull fertilizing the Earth. Even with the bull often depicted as being a masculine or solar being it is also referred to as lunar or female symbol. The horns of the bull can appear like the crescent of the moon which is a feminine aspect. When an animal can be associated with both male and female traits of spirituality there is often a hidden opportunity for fertility, and many things can be fertilized such as our ideas, thoughts, and relationships.

If Taurus is not your Sun sign you may still have natal or transiting planets in this sign or house. It might be good to check this out periodically to get in tune with the energies past or present. Taurus for me is my 7th House and Uranus is transiting here. I am experiencing some very oppressive issues in relationships presently. When it comes to one-to-one relating I have felt restricted or that my values are no longer on the same page as others I once associated with which has propelled me to do some friend cuts wishing some people the absolute best as we part ways into uncharted futures. This is because Uranus demands that one breaks out or breaks free of anything leaving one feeling encumbered. In marriages many state this can even signal divorces when we can’t resolve our differences.

Whatever the scenario for each individual a certain amount of detachment and objectivity is helpful and by this I do not mean cold detachment. Social interactions should remain free spirited and we should likewise expect the unexpected.

Self Examination Saturdays: Alhambra, Citrus Fruits, and Camera Obscura

Optical Illusions are Closer Than They Appear

I have been grappling with insomnia for a week now and it has made life a bit awkward. Sometimes I turn to ASMR when this hits. Right now I have not done that, and so I get up to bed with an overthinking brain that won’t shut off. I also had an allergic reaction to cinnamon of all things which sent me into a week of inflammatory haphazards with my mouth and dental work. Overall just really unpleasant, and thus I have been trying to not show it because most of society will expect one to push all that aside and carry on. Meanwhile somewhere we know we will have some sort of reactionary or triggering response festering underneath our people pleasing. Proof that everyone needs time to seriously just unwind myself included.

I had a tarot reading done for myself not long ago on the basis of “What is your light and shadow?” The concept was to learn or know of them to better work with each. One of the tarot decks I did further research on and this is a tie in for today’s meditation and visualization.

My tarot reader used the 1001 Inventions Trump cards which she received while in Dubai. The focus of the cards she had were on Arabic contributions to the globe at large during their Golden Age. Two cards came in my reading from this deck. The goal of these cards was to learn about my dharma and mission.

  • Citrus Fruits: new crops like oranges, peaches, and rice spread across the world from Muslim areas as far as southern Spain

Citrus fruits are rich in Vitamin C so immediately this called to me in terms of healing and our immune system. But I realized it is much deeper than just Vitamin C.

Citrus fruits add extra sunshine and warmth to any diet. Citrus fruits are often thought of as delectable for their balanced sweet and sour taste and also make an essential part of everyday nutrition. Health benefits include Vitamin C, flavonoids, and fiber which protect against vascular problems, reduce inflammation, improve gastrointestinal function, and play an integral function in preventing conditions such as diabetes, cancer, and neurological disease. Citrus fruits call to me also being born in Sunshine State Florida.

I call myself the beach bum baby because of being born in Clearwater. I loved swimming as a child and you could not get me out of water or the sun so I always sported a golden tan. However, I am technically a resident Texan. We moved to Texas when I was 5 years old and have been planted here ever sense. Which means I always get asked if I wear cowboy hats and boots which I don’t. I live right outside of Austin and no offense, but cowboy hats and boots are not my style. As a previous manager said of me when I was working for her I an more of a glamazon. High school was an all black phase for me. Angry and depressed I was. People legitimately cracked jokes at me back then about being witchy and Halloween. I thought I just liked the Addams family better.


Needless to say I wound up late at night reading the following MSN article. I am one of those people that believes while tarot and astrology can be purely for entertainment there is a reason I am being pointed to look deeper at something the Universe presents me with. Others may find it airy fairy or superstitious.

And my apologies if anyone is tired of reading about me. My little business blog here for my astrology business is a wee infant. And I do have plans to expand my business outside of astrology readings as featured with the link to my business website in the sidebar. I wanted to include ebooks I would publish and sell for a small nominal fee or start an account with Redbubble or Teespring (presently comparing these two and picking one). I do not have a big enough audience yet for that I do not think though. So I am trying to be patient and focus on promoting myself or my business in various ways for now. I think I could use some help maybe!


  • Camera Obscura: a clearer picture where a dark room became a camera obscura so that light rays emitted from visual objects enter our eyes.

This particular invention was used to understand how we see and to teach the principles of light with optical theories.

For me this also makes sense with psychology; particularly projections we need to own or that others expect we should own. Projections can get sticky and can begin to feel a bit uncomfortable for anyone.

The camera obscura also known as a dark chamber is any darkened room with a small hole or lens at one side through which an image is projected onto a wall or table opposite said hole. This can occur within a box or tent in which exterior images are projected inside.

Since the second half of the 16th century these devices became popular as aids for drawing and painting. The concept was later developed further into the photographic camera in the first half of the 19th century when camera obscura boxes were used to expose light-sensitive materials to any projected image.

They were also used to study eclipses without the risk of damaging our eyes by looking directly into the sun. A camera obscura without a lens and with a very small hole is sometimes referred to as a pinhole camera which refers to simple homemade lens-less cameras where photographic film or photographic paper was utilized.

Rays of light travel in straight lines and change when reflected and partly absorbed by an object thereby retaining information about the color and brightness of the surface of that object. Illuminated objects reflect rays of light in all directions. A small enough opening in a barrier admits only the rays that travel directly from different points in the scene on the other side. These rays form an image of that scene where they reach a surface opposite from the opening.

Our human eye and those of animals such as birds, fish, or reptiles works much like a camera obscura with a pupil, a convex lens, and a retina. Some camera obscuras use a concave mirror for the focusing effect akin to a convex lens.

Below is a how to on turning a room into a camera obscura.


Why would I put this here today. Self examination is to me like self reflection, and this struck me as if the tarot reading was the concept of looking into a mirror to see what it projects back at me or what was projected to my tarot reader. It is always both scary and fascinating when something resonates close to home.

I actually with my mom make my own organic lotion. After a terrible response to SLS in beauty care as a licensed aesthetician I had to begin taking matters into my own hands of crafting my own tooth, body, etc. products. Makeup became mineral and many items went organic, vegan, no animal testing, etc. The lotion is almost vegan, but we do use organic beeswax which invalidates that item. Yes, I know. It is not entirely perfect.

The rest of the ingredients being all organic coconut, avocado, Vitamin E, jojoba, argan, shea, raspberry, and mango oils with cocoa butter. What is funny is that I fragrance this with orange, tangerine, or lemon and clove essential oils like a pomander. The organic and non GMO is a big thing for me as well as making sure it is ethically sourced. I am not sure if I will ever completely beat the beeswax thing though. Emulsions after all for lotion. I would need to figure out a good substitution, and I have made many jokes to my family about wanting to become a bee keeper since my garden usually has so many…even bumble bees. Instead they come and go as they please, but I wondered about actually caring politely for them in another capacity at one point. This is used also as my lip balm and my hair styling in place of chemical gels because I have a full Leo (Leos and the mane are a very touchy subject matter) the lion mane of curly afro like hair I was born with. My hair is otherwise wild and unruly. As a lip balm this stuff got rid of a fever blister after a dental procedure I had faster than anything OTC I previously used.

Oh and speaking of the legendary Leo mane all astrologers joke about. This one is now a virgin again. It went through years of abuse. I was born platinum blonde and in high school I went home one day and randomly dyed it an eggplant color. My mom wanted to skin me alive. She said she nearly dropped dinner dishes on the floor when she called me to eat with family in horrific shock and awe. Did not help I had cut it myself short when it had been down to the middle of my back. Then I had my red head phase for years. Then in beauty school I had it cut in bobs and colored in a pattern that came off the crown of my head with rays to mimic the sun shine when kids draw it.

These triangular chunks changed color every month. So a gal pal has photos of me in her wedding album with neon pink which became blue, green, purple, etc. and my co-workers back then affectionately referred to me as Rainbow Brite. Yes like the 80s cartoon and doll which is perfect for a gal born in 1979 no less. The neon pink was a call back to my childhood when I dressed as Jem from Jem and the Holograms for Halloween. My step father made me actual earrings since he knew how that lit up and blinked. Which is also funny. I rolled up with my makeup kit on wheels cause I got a lot of stuff and some of the kids at the wedding thought I was going to be the DJ. I actually professionally did her wedding makeup for her so her wedding album is full of photos of me backstage getting her ready for her big day and reveal! But I was also religiously flat ironing it. And boy was my mane distressed and foul.

I am not saying the lotion is a cure. I think the moisturizing effect and nutritional content simply helped the healing process along. I have never marketed any of this. I do not want to deal with the laws or the FDA and other authorities to market it. I had no motivation to even try when I began realizing obstacles were in my path. I just gave up in self defeat. On the other hand one can say via camera obscura and projections psychological or otherwise that we’re in a fun house of optical illusions commonly called Maya. Which means what is “real” and how do we know or distinguish that from falsehoods in life. Just another utterly abstract and strange philosophical rambling of mine. It fit quite well with the discussion I had with family today about the Twilight Zone introduction and the Fifth Dimension/5D when you are speaking to religion, spirituality, and the New Age. Particularly since this likewise is an allusion to the Equinox even. The fact is everyone has been in the Fifth Dimension/5D probably longer than they realize making certain beliefs that some are beholden to a wee bit peculiar to say the least! I guess they do not have a capability of recognizing this as a truth or reality. Without being too offensive perhaps they hold to the theory that ignorance is bliss. I tend to disagree!



To combine these I thought it might be fun to watch videos of Alhambra this Saturday.


Japan Potato and POPtravel offer two half hour 4K walks through Alhambra. I am not sure which one will appeal more to my visitors so I have chosen to let you make that choice!

Walking Alhambra and Partal Gardens:



And if architecture is more your thing here is a 30 minute video from Antreas Dim of the Alhambra’s architecture with narration! I hope everyone enjoys one or all of these videos today.


1001 Inventions can be found here:


Fun Quote Fridays: A Better Future in the Making

The long road to…

“What is coming is better than what is gone.”

  • Arabic Proverb

“Just because the past didn’t turn out like you wanted it to doesn’t mean your future can’t be better than you imagined.” 

  • Anonymous

“Your future is as bright as your faith.” 

  • Anonymous

“Don’t worry about people in your past. There’s a reason they didn’t make it to your future.”

  • Anonymous

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”

  • Eleanor Roosevelt

“You cannot change your future. But you can change your habits. And surely your habits will change your future.”

  • A.P.J. Abdul Kalam

“My interest is in the future because I am going to spend the rest of my life there.” 

  • Anonymous

Tarot of the Day Thursdays: The Journey to Possessing Wholeness

I am actually a pumpkin spice and pumpkin pie junkie. I can not explain it to you if you do not have that temperament or craving.

I am learning Runes presently and so today I decided to reach into my grey pouch and pull three out for our message from the Universe. Perhaps we can learn together today and someone can help enrich my knowledge. Here is what was received and transmitted!

Norse cosmology is something I am not as well versed in compared to the Judaeo Christian or even my attempts at the Tao which I received as a Christmas gift from my mom many years ago. This year I slowly began the Quran. And the Vedas I am also a bit rudimentary on. But I am hungry to learn if I can find some decent mentors. I picked this up since my ancestry also has Nordic roots as mentioned in previous blog posts.

You will find as family raised me with a blank slate and told me to go study and find my own way I am eclectic. The entire house is this way from mother and step father to daughter. That means we stumble along the way also sometimes. I need to learn pronunciation actually.



A rune of fulfillment, ambition satisfied, love shared, nourishment, and rewards received. This extends from the most worldly to the most sacred and Divine. If As Above So Below holds true we are also here to nourish God.

This rune calls for deep probing into the meaning of profit/gain. Look with care to know whether it is wealth and possessions you require at this time for your well being or rather self rule and the growth of will.

Fehu also asks that we conserve what we have gained already. Vigilance and continual mindfulness especially during times of good fortune ensure we do not collapse in on our successes and/or behave recklessly and impulsively. Enjoy the bounty received and share it for the mark of the well nourished self is their ability and willingness to nourish another!

Some associate this rune to the archetypal Goddess Freya. As I learn about the runes I have also ventured at times to guidance from others for a variation in interpretation. Everything in life is perspective, and I am a bit of a connoisseur of absorbing various interpretations so I retain a very open mind. Rather I go down many rabbit holes and test them or scrutinize them. I like to think others should do the same.







Union or reunion? This rune speaks to communication, attunement with something that has two sides/elements, and the ultimate union that comes at the end of this journey being taken. When what is above has been united with that which is below becomes of one mind.

Inner worth and when one is not intended to rely upon their own power rather they are to inquire as to what constitutes right action. Through prayer or meditation and addressing the Witnessing Self or Teacher Within one is capable of cleaning and neutralizing their refusal to allow right action to flow through them.

When one is not intent on movement they patiently wait and keep on removing resistances or obstacles in their path. The journey itself is towards self healing, self change, and an unobstructed perfect union. The union or reunion of Heaven and Earth must not be forced.

Raido is one of the Cycle runes carrying within it Joy when one is no longer burdened by what was left behind. Instead Heaven and Earth unite within and support one on their way. The mantra advised for healing is “I Will to Will Thy Will.” Some associate this rune to the archetypal God Forseti.







Wholeness is that which our nature requires and we embody an impulse towards self realization. The path we are all to follow need not come forth from ulterior motives, but rather from our core individuality.

This seeking is the path of a spiritual warrior and one is striving to become that which they by nature already are. We become conscious of our essence, bring it into form, and express it in a creative way. This rune is about regeneration down to our cellular level.

Sowelu counsels one to open up rather than retreat inward and allow their light to shine into areas of darkness where secrets have been shut away. We are to address the Sun as:

You are the source of all power,
whose rays illuminate the world,
Illuminate also my heart
So that it too can do Your work.

This is via the Gayatri. We are to practice the art of doing without doing. We do nothing of our own power. Love loves through us. Some associate this rune to the archetypal Goddess Sol.






All life is dependent upon sacrifice and killing. The exception is found within the life of plants who obtain their energy directly from the Sun and are thus spared the burden of killing to survive. In some perspectives we find the plant is the most spiritually perfect on Earth. Since plants serve directly or indirectly as the sustainability for all beings higher up the proverbial food chain one could confer that life itself is founded upon a ceaseless unrepentant slaughter of Earth’s purest sentience.

Animal life is sustained by plants, plant life is sustained by the Sun, and the Sun provides his/her energy to our very solar system only by the ceaseless sacrifice of its vital spirit in the form of what we call hydrogen. The catch is that once depleted the Sun will inevitably expand to engulf the solar system before collapsing into a dwarf star and then dying altogether. Life on Earth as we rightfully know it if willing to acknowledge actual truth is dependent upon a perpetual ongoing and total sacrifice of the Sun itself hereby making the Sun’s traditional regal and religious importance that much more powerful.

The cosmos appeared to the Vedic as a constant ritual sacrifice. In short this is an unusual destiny which compels every living thing to kill, to devour others so as to exist, and struck our very ancestors with awe and wonder. Whether we acknowledge this or not the truth is that we all live with taking part in a cosmic ritual. This is positive only when we do it consciously and with the proper knowledge of forms and utterances. Through the voluntary ritual of sacrifice humanity takes their rightful place in the cosmic symphony as an equal. The main purpose of his/her existence is the very performance of this ritual.

To some there is necessity for things to die in order that others might live; live and let die. This unpalatable feature of human existence is rejected by the other side of the coin that rallies live and let live.

I can’t help, but feel the Beatles, Paul McCartney, and James Bond right now. And ironic since I own the Tarot of the Witches as well which was the deck used in the movie which my step father insisted I have for my birthday about 5 years ago.

Tarot of the Witches:




The thing is Death is also an illusion if we consider that aphorism about energy neither created nor destroyed. Ironic given our Super New Moon is in Scorpio opposite Uranus bringing energies of transformation and change. My 1st House is Scorpio and Uranus is placed there. We integrate what we’ve learned and we move forward. New opportunities await once we are finished going through our metamorphosis. Again if you are not obsessed with symbolism it may not resonate for you. You can fear Death or you can embrace and trust in the process. There is an acronym that explains this False Evidence Appearing Real is after all Maya. Choose love over fear everyone.

PS: It’s uncanny how pivotal this is with my blog post yesterday. I just found this at 10:23 PM CST. You’ll get it if you happen to read that entry and also look at my natal wheel.


Wisdom Wednesdays: Making the Unconscious Mind Conscious

The condition of being free from control, restrictions, imprisonment, slavery, forced labor, and excessive government control. The condition of being free to act, believe, or express oneself as one chooses. Do we still live by these principals?

The individual and collective unconscious consists of thoughts, feelings, drives, motives, and reactions of which many of us are often unaware. They influence every aspect of our lives including our mental, emotional, interpersonal, sexual, and professional relationships. Our unconscious also contains repressed memories that in daily life remains beneath our level of awareness.

The goal of making the unconscious conscious or bringing into our awareness the parts of our selves that have been repressed and split off is seen by some as very healing and necessary.

I grew up in a time in America before certain “new normals” were being birthed into the consciousness of many. Therefore I have different world views or perspectives than others which sometimes causes friction in relating. Albeit I spend a lot of time actually trying to not create conflict as I am a very conflict avoidant typology if one looked at my Enneagram as a 9 wing 1. The reason nines struggle with external peacemaking is our foremost concern is preservation of our inner peace. External peace is of secondary importance or perhaps more of a means to an end for us. We are peace lovers rather than peacemakers.

Getting to know a 9w1 looks like this:


For example, one job I worked in retail during my 30s I mentioned how I was graduating college when 9/11 occurred. I was literally finishing my last class and walking to my car as the event unfolded and learned of it from the radio of my SUV. I have family in New York on my step father’s side. My co-worker at the time looked at me and exclaimed “I was in fifth grade when that happened.” And I was struck with the limiting belief that I suddenly felt old; really old. Ignoring all the controversy around this event some family was employed as NYPD and NYFD. Those family members were around Ground Zero not the day of nor involved in clean up, but they were there to physically see the aftermath and tell us about it.

At 16 our family took a vacation to Chicago, Canada, and New York. We flew on a plane to Chicago and drove via rental car into Canada as during that time we needed no passport to cross the border and stayed in Niagara Falls before entering New York. The purpose was to see both maternal and step paternal family as my mom’s family is primarily living in Chicago.

It was at this age that I got to visit Ellis Island and climb the Statue of Liberty to the top level of her crown where the windows were open so you could look out and read the inscription in the book she carries in her hand and breathe in the ocean. And the significance this has on you may not truly sink in till you are older and wiser. When in your 40s life is unrecognizable to you. I say this because of the changes I have seen since my youth. Today our National Park Service mandates masks while inside all buildings and on Ellis Island. This would have been torture to me or my family when we went back then. It was July as my birthday is on the 26th so think of being in a metal structure with no air conditioner or air flow climbing several steps in summer heat with a mask on. Imagine this when family has asthma. The steps get smaller and smaller as you go higher. At the uppermost I believe I remember the stairs spiraling and having to climb with my feet sideways the steps were that small.

One change is that my maternal grandfather, a WW II Pacific Ocean Theater veteran, passed away at which time I inherited the entire history of my families matriarchal records. These records include birth, marriage, death, and cemetery plot information. I inherited my great grandmother’s high school yearbook from 3 years before the Great Depression, a California king oak bed, and a photo of a grandfather from a prior generation who served in the Civil War as a Union soldier in his military dress uniform. And within this the importance of history and immigration since my maternal family ventured to this nation circa early 1800s from Germany and Denmark with a mixed bag in terms of even spirituality being also Ashkenazi Jewish and Protestant Lutheran. I went the route of my step father’s Sicilian culture. Don’t ask? I am still sorting this out.

I was raised with full freedom to learn all religions and to choose whatever I want even to be atheist or agnostic. By my 20s I was Catholic which now I question the choice I made. Looking back having learned other spiritual practices I always question the motivation leading to that moment. A good long hard look that says why?

At age 39 my step father wanted to give me a ring for my birthday. And again with no real research or thought I felt drawn to have a ring for my left index finger since I am a South Paw or lefty. I was given a United States quarter minted the year of my birth. And to anyone who does not dig into symbols this obsession of mine to know myself or others seems banal or trivial until someone explains how the unconscious mind is at play.

I bought a book on palmistry since I am in my 40s now and heavily into psychoanalysis or esoterics. To my wondrous amazement I learned very quickly that this also matched my studies of astrology and Kabbalah. This index finger is known as our Jupiter finger. Wearing a ring here unconsciously emphasizes the meaning of this planet and finger. What does that imply? Well at birth my Jupiter was in Leo 10th House. And this finger can be seen as a Yod as well which is an astrology configuration. The Tree of Life places Jupiter with Chesed. Chesed is a benevolent ruler whose name translates as “kindness/mercy.” It is the power of growth and expansion, stability and extension, and willing to provide structure and stability. Kind of nature this also represents charity and generosity.

I even came across this fellow astrologer’s older entry in my studies not long ago.


Natal Wheel Via astro.com for reference.

One wants to boost their self confidence, take on roles of leadership, and improve their sense of personal power. It is the finger that stands apart from the rest indicating a person who likes to be in the spotlight and has to keep their ego a bit in check at the same time literally. On the dominant hand this ring holds a desire or drive to take action and be noticed for one’s achievements. Jupiter is seen in astrology as the following:

• the higher self
• luck
• abundance
• generosity
• spirituality
• philosophy
• universities
• growth
• morality

Jupiter is not so much about religion as it is widely about faith in life and looking on the brighter side. There are times in life when all you can do is to hope that things will work out for the best of yourself and others. Jupiter is the planet of faith in astrology believing that everything will be good not because of desperate hopelessness, but because it knows deep down that things will turn out right in the end. It’s an unshakable faith that life is worth living and adversity is stepping stones towards a more evolved and fulfilled life.

Would you also like to learn more about Jupiter’s esoteric meaning? Below are two links to information I read a few months ago.



This same finger holds an entirely different meaning in Kabbalah as I was researching my Ashkenazi Jewish roots. In Kabbalah we may begin to see this as the wedding ring finger at one point in time. You can read about this in the links I provide below:




I was essentially looking for lost parts of myself because being in Texas I did not see family very often. That sounds absurd I know. My family did not take trips north to Chicago or New York with me until I was 16. Again when I was 29 post graduate as a licensed aesthetician. We took vacations, but we have not traveled outside of the USA except for Canada and we have stayed down south along the border as I was born in Sunshine State Florida (Clearwater to be exact). So you can imagine for me this search has been more than a little unusual in light of political climes recently as well. If one is not becoming aware of their unconscious or even subconscious it is said they go through life not really active in what they are manifesting or even attracting.

Paternal family is actually complicated. My biological father I have no contact with for personal reasons that I disclose to a select few out of not secrecy, but personal safety given how that divorce transpired for my mom and I. I do, however, know the DNA is Anglo Saxon, Nordic, and an extremely small percent Ethiopian and Middle Eastern. It again also has Ashkenazi Jewish within it as well much like the maternal lineage. And really I did not know any of this until I inherited family records and took an interest in really digging for answers or clues.

Now this little Washington quarter ring has three phrases on it that struck me as important to take note of. These phrases are:

• Liberty



• In God We Trust


• E Pluribus Unum


If we were to translate this symbolism a bit further we would find that Kabbalah tends to view the left as the desire to receive not necessarily for self alone. Reiki actually presents another dimension to this. Kuji-kiri or the Nine Symbolic Cuts for example is seen in Japanese martial arts.

  • (臨) Rin – Power
  • (兵) Hyo/Pyo – Energy
  • (闘) Toh – Harmony
  • (者) Sha – Healing
  • (皆) Kai – Intuition
  • (陣) Jin – Awareness
  • (列) Retsu – Dimension
  • (在) Zai – Creation
  • (前) Zen – Absolute

Kuji-in are created via the gesture of both hands. The left hand Taizokai represents a receptive valence while the right hand Kongokai conveys an emitter valence. The Kuji-kiri performed with the right hand emphasizes the cut of ignorance or Maya (illusion and the deceptive sensory world) through the Sword of Wisdom. According to the belief system of Shingon Mikkyo one would create an opening in the daily world that allows oneself to reach various states of consciousness.

The origin of this is seen by scholars as Taoist not Buddhist. This is also largely viewed as a layman’s practice not found in orthodox Buddhist traditions. Rather you’ll find it within Shugendo, ascetic mountain traditions of Japan, and Shinto. There are numerous variations of the nine original Taoist kuji in Japanese Buddhism. In Taoism the number nine is seen in divination as a perfect number for yang/yo or the “bright side” when determining individual hexagram lines of the I-Ching or Book of Changes. Some scholars suggest that the number nine refers to the nine planets which Taoists believe directly influence human destiny or to the seven stars of the Big Dipper plus the two attendant/guardian stars which Taoists believe to be the gateway to heaven and that each star is a Taoist deity.

These nine hand seals refer to mudra, mantra, and meditation. In this way Kuji-in are seen as obvious influences of onmyodo (the way of Yin and Yang) encompassing all cosmic phenomena and eternity between two polar opposites. There is even a mudra known as gejishi-in (gesture of the outer lion) and its immediate counterpart naijishi-in (gesture of the inner lion) clearly representing this Yin/Yang relation. The two lions are commonly seen outside the doors of Buddhist temples where they stand as guardians against evil and baleful influences. The first lion utters the sound “A” to symbolize the Alpha; all reality and phenomena are said to neither absolutely exist nor non-exist. They arise in dependence upon conditions and cease when those conditions cease. The second lion utters the sound “Un” (Hūm) which symbolizes the Omega; the destruction of all evils summarizing the two basic false views of nihilism and externalism showing them to be false. There is neither real nor unreal.

For more information on Kuji-kiri please visit the following links:



Why does this even matter? What does freedom look like to you? What does spirituality look like to you? I am asking because I legitimately wish to hear the perspectives of my audience to enrich my own so I am not walking around with limited beliefs. So the floor opens for you to talk to me as well. That ball is in your court.

Is freedom something such as debt forgiveness or a jubilee that evokes a sense of financial freedom? Is freedom from slavery eradication of usury or debt slavery which perpetuates amortization and poverty consciousness? Is freedom the eradication of human or sex trafficking? Would freedom remove social or behavioral engineering that many are victimized by making their course in life a battle against finding and being their true selves?

Does freedom look like my body my choice and to what extreme is this ideology acceptable for a select few while for others bodily autonomy has no place whatsoever? Or what is bodily autonomy because I believe the issue is so much more than achieving abortion rights since I know and live in this body not someone else. Yes I identify as a woman who is proud to be female and heteronormative. Zero offense to others. I am not here to judge you so please try to not judge me either. We need to respect one another’s differences. Is freedom from slavery the eradication of factory farms and the abuse of animals for a food source when they are also sentient life? Is freedom the ability for all to reach moksha or the final liberation of the soul or consciousness from samsara as a means to ending all suffering involved in being subject to the laws and cycles of reincarnation?

Those questions above are the tip of a larger panoply of issues I see some address presently online that make up not just an American world view, but views of global human citizenry. Please leave me comments on this so I can openly hear from others and expand my awareness and understanding. It is my sincerest belief that these concepts are not just an American Manifest Destiny, but may have been unconscious or subconscious destinies that we collectively sought to accomplish and achieve.

I am wondering if we are getting closer or further away from these ideals or if they are in fact the principals of bygone eras and times that to many others no longer hold any values except to a random few who are becoming self aware through the act of introspection, meditation, and study. And maybe for me it is more pronounced due to my Vedic astrology chart. Being born in Magha lunar mansion or nakshatra as a previous blog entry mentioned we have a tendency to hold to our traditions, ancestors including sometimes veneration, and we take a more detached view of life. But I have been grappling with a question for months. Are we entering another Dark Age, are we evolving or devolving, are we regressing? Who owns us mind, body, and soul? What have we sacrificed for security or out of fear of the unknown? The start of this particular decade has given me a bit of a gut wrenching knee jerk shell shock if I am honest. I would not expect for others to really understand this amidst so many divisive realities I have recently been exposed to that epitomize dualistic or extremist value systems as their foundations.

Only one part of my Vedic astrology chart via vedicastrology.us.com for reference.

I won’t be angry by what you share. I may be a wee bit triggered at times when I confront certain topics, but I am learning everyday how to continuously shed my older more limiting concepts in life and move away from ignorance. De-programming is not an overnight process.

PS: I actually have my own astrology software I use on my laptop, but I was composing this entry on my iPhone. We do travel just not always to see family and we have not made it to Mexico nor across the ocean outside of the USA. Some of that includes financial reasons believe it or not. I tend to travel instead vicariously through what others share with me online. And again I empathize and apologize if this was triggering for my audience. My intent is that we consciously and collectively open up discussions in a respectful way to legitimately grow in understanding ourselves. Please remember everyone carries baggage, and we are all trying to presently work through it sifting what we should retain and what needs to be let go of.

Places my family and I have gone also include:

New Mexico, Louisiana, Alabama, Mississippi, Missouri, California, North/South Dakota, Georgia, Oklahoma, Kansas, Nevada, Michigan, and Arizona

Teach Me Tuesdays: Using TNO to Flesh Out a Story

An Eye in the Sky?

What is a TNO? I am really glad that you asked. A Trans Neptunian Object encompasses bodies that have been found beyond the orbit of Neptune. Their importance in astrological studies are influential on our subconscious drives, our invisible desires, and dealing with themes of illusion. They usually have long orbits around the Sun equal to over 200 years representing entire generations of people rather than those experienced on a solely individual level. Their house placement signals where in a person’s life he or she tends to direct their energy.

I picked three out today to create a story board from and these three TNO are:

Varuna who is seen as one of the most ancient deities of the Vedas and regarded as the personification of an all-embracing sky. In the Vedas Varuna is connected with the element of water or specifically the waters of space (akasha). Later we find Varuna was degraded like Ouranos having been lowered down from heaven to Earth via exoteric anthropomorphism.

Chaos (19521) acting via a concept of all pervasive interacting with all matter as a deity whose personal appearance could not be described sharing his throne with his wife Night. Eventually Gaia (the Earth) and Ouranos descended from them. In these myths Eurynome, the Goddess of all things, arose naked from Chaos and coupled with Ophion (the great serpent) and eventually gave birth to the Universal Egg. Chaos has to do with the originating causes of our Universe. It has the potential to embody all things. Chaos is that which has not taken a shape or form nor has been fertilised by consciousness.

Logos (58534) is not actually a word as we understand words to be. Logos is an initial thought of divinity; the genesis or source of creation. It is the masculine spiritual seed which impregnates the feminine spiritual womb.

So what do all of these creation myths mean?

Creation myths consist of three essences or gunas respectively:

• Nous as the mind of divinity
• Logos as the word or breath of divinity
• Chaos as the primal waters of the great subconscious

So now I am going to tell you a story through astrology. Let’s begin using an ephemeris and we will build upon our previous Teach Me Tuesdays lesson using the degrees only this time we will primarily use Chandra symbols for simplification and ease.



A hamster running in a treadmill.

Keeping up with things can be an all-consuming matter, because everything changes all the time. There are always fresh angles to master. And when you are coming from a very old place, it is not so easy to shake yourself loose and become the next thing asked. To do it you may have to turn yourself into a super-high-powered accomplisher, converting ancient ways to radically different eras. You are personally, privately one way and publicly, impersonally, another way, turning it on to suit the occasion. The karmic performer in overdrive, hustling to catch up. At times compelled to rely on tricks. Frantic to cover all bases, to be everywhere. Pushing yourself to learn how to operate within a contemporary world that is alien, at a loss. Yet also gifted, bringing with you from the heart of nature such jewels and wonders that the world may ask, “Why do you cast your pearls before swine?” But there are moments in the journey when doing whatever is called for becomes its own reward, even if the pace is grinding and the recognition sparse. Something bright abides and sustains you beautifully.

Our cosmos’ impulsiveness alludes to a compelling need to exert itself with little thought towards the future or even the significance of its actions stemming from an unquestioning cooperation with what it’s instinctual drives are wanting it to do. “I am what I am and I do what I do” is the attitude expressed in a healthy and direct way. Even within perceived limitations or restrictions our Universe is unflagging and remains engaged. Where new revelations are brought from darkness to light concerning something that one presumed as passed and finished new discoveries may be illuminated.



A garden planted solely with shade plants.

Offered the unique chance to take any given side of self and world to its absolute limit and beyond. Scouting out ahead in whatever direction suits your fancy. Saturated with all the props and accompanying attitudes and gestures of your chosen tangent. Fabulously alive to your fantasy, your obsession, your specialized style and manifestation. Extravagantly lavish in letting yourself go to decadent or breakthrough places. No conscience, no ethic, no restriction. Exploring to the hilt one side of things. And hoping to wear it out if it is limiting, or to bring it back alive for everybody to get in touch with if it proves to be relevant and enduring and cosmically right on.

Shade plants require a minimum of light and so to the perceptions of some would be philosophers we are looking here into the dark side of life which contrary to popular exoteric beliefs is not in fact bad nor to be feared. Shade plants are more akin to the Moon than to the Sun. This degree tells us of how immersion in the dark aspects of self and reality also leads to exploring the extremes with an end result being a fuller understanding of the light. With this we see the potential of enriching others in unexpected, abnormal, and wonderfully inventive ways.



A cook fixing vegetable soup from a myriad of ingredients.

If variety is spice, here we have the ultimate gourmet dish. Inner necessity dictates that you draw eclectically upon the broadest, most fantastic range of factors and facets you can possibly expose yourself to. By becoming conversant with myriad voices, you find the subtle edge between the universal self and your own evolving center. As you spread yourself thin and keep extending to the far horizon, the synthesis or blend grows richer and finer all the while. It is only by blending what has previously been polarized that you can begin to make your way. To be here for the changes and the mix is everything. To define and limit is nothing. You simply have no taste whatsoever for prepared, predigested worlds. It has to be dazzlingly inventive and spontaneously revelatory to have any currency in the realm where we are all seeking to bust loose and we take what we find, throw it together, and discover that everything is part of the same thing. And this realization fans a pathway beyond the known altogether.

A healer may work with the breath which affects everything while a cook makes a multi-ingredient soup which is one containing the seeming many. So many things play into relating. In any relationship certain ingredients must dominate. If too much salt or pepper for example dominates many people will not like the soup. Yet when the flavors are balanced this soup is wonderfully delicious and many enjoy it.

What this degree does is use many different topics and forms of energy for the sheer purpose of relating to others while at the same time experimenting with trying to find the right mix that is the most flavorful to an audience. Free coming and going energies in this process is in all actuality very much like the act of breathing which takes in and distributes energy allowing the energy passage to where it wants to go and is wonderfully rejuvenating.

Now if we bring this down to a micro instead of macro level we find it best to peruse our individual natal charts to see this in play in our daily lives. Because an astrologer who desires to paint a picture for their prospective client must translate this into a digestible and understandable coaching tool.

Here is a brief example of this process:

Leo is my 10th House which shines light on the area of career and profession. Think in terms of the authority status conveys and as a consequence the role we play in our community. With regards to achievements this house focuses on how we see ourselves and how the community as a whole sees us and our efforts. We are in fact working on manifesting ourselves.

What role will we choose and how will we best fill it? How much do we want to achieve?

Gemini is my 8th House which speaks to transformation or metamorphosis. What is our attitude towards change? What secrets do we keep and why? How we individually as well as collectively manage our interactions is important. Are we the kind of person/people who will be honest, effective, and responsible? Will the riches generated by our relationships benefit the group as a whole? This sign is also the sign of twins.

Libra is my 12th House where the individual and collective unconscious engender our successes while assisting in coping with failures. Do we consciously confront our lives or do we instead subconsciously sweep things under the rug? Do we seek to keep our strengths and weaknesses hidden from public view?

Our subconscious works hard on our behalf attempting to make sense of our existence or life’s purpose. This shadow play is slow, long, and often fraught with fear or pain. It is in this context that we are confronted with our sorrows, sufferings, and the secrets we keep from not just ourselves but from others.

What have we battled with in our lives? Will the answers compel us to be transformed or reborn? This is a house of the non-self which means it is concerned with the impersonal. Sometimes the good in life is not published and sometimes the bad is concealed. Anyone who introspects on their life is likely to think of that which they did not do, which they wished they had done, and that which they did do and wished they hadn’t.

Manifestation Mondays: Always Begin with Gratitude

A Secret Garden With a Story All It’s Own

These are the 3 things I have achieved in the past year or so and I am celebrating it!

Ankle Ligament Surgery Recovery Was a Success:

In an attempt to shorten a complex story that dovetails into another achievement here goes nothing. 5 years ago I learned the hard way that my parents 30+ year old house was not designed to safety codes. The front door had unsafe steps leading to and from it. So after a trip to the grocery store on my departure to close and lock my mom’s SUV I slipped and fell.

I was upright one minute and the next thing my brain processed was seeing the front yard coming at my face or head. The instinctual body does what it knows best even if this is wrong. Fight or flight! So my hands go out to brace for the impact so my head does not nose dive into grass. I do not want a concussion. Meanwhile the waist down has slammed into a cement sidewalk and inverted my left foot hair line fracturing not just my heel or calcaneus, but also my first two metatarsals and dislocated my cuboid. Yes, you just got a brief lesson in anatomy!

I prepare to stand up clueless my foot is fractured and realize I can not stand up. I am in horrible pain if I put weight on this foot. So I somehow manage to use my good leg to stand and hop to the front door of the house and open it sitting on a step to inform family of a terrible accident. It took 6 months non weight bearing on crutches and knee scooter to heal this foot, and then physical therapy as well as going through muscle atrophy after the fact which is very painful. I never recommend this life path, but it is survivable! And I am a little woman. I may be average height, but I am otherwise petite.

This was when I was forced to close and shutter my aesthetics business. That was a blow I was so miserable with. During recovery I could not work in the same capacity as a spa owner self employed on my own. It felt like I lost a child. I became a personal grocery shopper after this injury instead and actually loved it. I worked for Instacart first then switched to a Texas area grocery store in the same capacity. It was going great, but my particular store had a design flaw also. First in this tale I need to define we worked different than Instacart. We were responsible for 12 shops at once by department (grocery, frozen, dry/general merchandise, and cold items including meat market, produce, and dairy) on specialized carts. I wish I had a photo of these carts to show you.

This store we had to go through their receiving department which meant we used an incline ramp to enter the store. Imagine you have this cart of cold items with say an order of 16 gallons of milk, produce, and other groceries to bring back down this same steep incline ramp and gravity is going to take over. Now imagine doing this in the rain. It gets slippery and even in the best of shoes you may lose your footing. So one day your foot slips and in the process you hear a snap. And it is that moment of “Oh fudge!” Literally chocolate would have been better than this! Can we say ouch?!

Well an MRI later I learned my left foot which had previous injuries had a 75% tear in the ligament, and I needed surgery ASAP. And to make it worse Covid is beginning and elective surgeries are being shut down. Without this surgery I can not walk! Oh, and I am without insurance. That dovetails to the next accomplishment so we will get there I promise.

I Have a New Appreciation for My Feet

One surgery center closes the day of my surgery due to Covid, and I am referred to a hospital. I could legitimately be filing for bankruptcy at this point. Surgery is a sticker shock of $11,000 plus anesthesiology fees and later physical therapy. But surgery goes well as does physical therapy, and 6 months later times round two in the boxing match against a seemingly cursed fate I am back! I even took a temporary job again as a personal grocery shopper at another store for three months post surgery.

I Am Debt Free and That is A Huge Relief:

Thank goodness for family and friends extended and at home. Without family I would have been homeless or would not have had financial help to cover medical bills. My step father was very wise in that when I was much younger and a wee itty one he bought US Savings Bonds and left them to mature. So I could cash them out and clear extenuating charges to my credit card from surgery and being on a medical LOA with no income.

My mom was there to get me to and from doctor appointments. An absolute must. She was also there to help with other life essentials. I was camped on the first floor of the house since it is a two story. I had a knee scooter to get around, but the house design still had hiccups like a half bath downstairs so no shower or bath tub. You have to get creative at a kitchen sink to bathe and have a chair for anyone with a disability. These challenges make you really appreciate normal life and mobility. They humble the you know what out of you and make you more compassionate than you already were for others who have lived life way less fortunate than you. Oh what I took for granted for so long and was reminded of each time I lost mobility in my left leg and foot!

Friends who texted or emailed to check up on me were always appreciated. The start of this was lockdown already and isolation is murder even for me who is more introverted by nature. I swear I had cabin fever both times I was in injury recovery.

But I would not even be where I am right now without a lot of help for which I am grateful even to the really good doctors, nurses, etc. who were there along the way towards the end of a dark tunnel where light was again shining.

If I was not debt free I would still be grinding away at who knows what for a job trying to get out from under the weight of an avalanche. I am thankful this happened while I was home with family and not living on my own as well as my car was paid off. I can not imagine if this happened any other way around. I would not be beginning my astrology business right now online. That is for sure!

A Garden After All The Struggles:

Family had a vehicle they owned for years that was taken to automobile shows. This Ford Lightning won several awards and was sold at a Mecom auction. They hoped it would have sold for more, but were grateful for what they received. Half of that money converted the lawn to a xeriscape organic garden I now use for growing my own herbs and vegetables. It was also a rather large pollinator garden for a time. Much gratitude to the little insects that keep the world going round known as bees, moths, butterflies, and wasps.

I took an interest in entomology learning about my own little biome during this time. We also have screech owls that nest here now. And those pesky dangerous steps at the front door were converted to a ramp accessible for those on knee scooters or wheel chairs.

So I have a new green thumb I never knew I had. I have grown various types of lettuce, romanesco, baby broccoli, gold potatoes, carrots, zinnias, marigolds, Italian and Thai basil, rosemary, lemon balm, borage, lavender, garlic chives, dahlias, buckwheat, flax, parsley, and green beans. And speaking of parsley I raised and released 6 swallowtail caterpillars to butterflies after their eggs were left on my parsley! I even documented their birthdays as silly as that sounds. The last butterfly was released on my late maternal grandfather’s birthday after wriggling free of it’s chrysalis. I also learned to do my own composting.

Never stop rolling with life’s punches even if it feels like someone or something has decided to alter your course into uncharted waters. And I have made it with no Covid also.