Teach Me Tuesdays: Have You Been In Solitaire Confinement

“How do you build a house with playing cards? Start a club, win their hearts, give them tools and spades, and pay them with diamonds.” – Anonymous

You will have to follow the clues I have left behind via underlined hyperlink text today to discern if there are hidden esoteric elements weaved carefully in much of what may be presented to us within our constant absorption of monomyths. We’re all guilty of succumbing to the past time of finding ourselves enthralled with heroic journeys.

I’m not sure if I’ll be assigned as a juror, but if I am I suspect having a bit less free time to write and that there may be a mini hiatus. I can only manage so much in each 24 hour day with my many obligations.


I am trying to ensure the latter part of my week is vacant for what has to be accomplished between jury duty as well as my part time cosmetology gig. So I have tried to fit in some compositions for this week before it gets a bit more chaotic with some unfinished chores I need to cross of on my list. While I’m generally not a Wiki fan I have resorted to utilizing one for some understanding and postulating.

For as much as I stopped binge watching Netflix and/or tell-a-lie-vision this week mom and I became consumed with Alice in Borderland. I get it because for me Alice in Wonderland has always been a favorite so much so that I also fell in love with CLAMP’s Miyuki-chan and American McGee’s Alice.

I am slightly frustrated if not dismayed to acknowledge I probably will be anxiously awaiting a Season 2 of Alice in Borderland. I do enjoy analyzing this story’s psychological twists/turns. Old habits I guess die hard when something catches our mind’s eye.

It is interesting that in tarot divination the suit of Hearts is the suit of Cups with Diamonds as Pentacles. Yet in this series we see something else being depicted (spoilers)!

But this morning I decided I wanted to divine a message with my charms. You can see the results below as well as some post rain garden updates. A little fun when we think of Alice who so desperately wanted to be Queen as well as enter the garden at the beginning of her own journey!

I actually have a Japanese costume (click for an image of the dress) that I have worn only twice themed after the Heart and Diamond card guards. It is packed away for whenever I decide to wear it again alongside another dress of a similar fashion style which is more gothic being navy blue almost black and white.

The dress I own was purchased in my late twenties from overseas for a pretty penny with import fees. It was custom made to my own measurements. Watching this series has made me reconsider if I would enjoy watching Squid Game or not. I am at present still unsure, but it  has been moved into the watch list.

Today the charms I have pulled are the passport, compass, and the solar system. We should take notice that our compass points East! I am not going to decode the entire message because I would like for my blog readers to work on finding answers as well.

“What playing cards are the best dancers? The King and Queen of Clubs.” – Anonymous

If these charms look familiar it is because they have turned up in previous divination blog posts before.

Passport: This document is often issued by a competent civil authority who grants permission to the individual named therein to travel in or out of a country as well as authenticating his/her right to protection while abroad.

We find that early use of the passport often indicated the right to leave one’s country. Therefore receiving a passport or getting it stamped represents approval.

Perhaps you will soon order or request something from an authority figure. Could a discussion with a boss where you are asking for some vacation time or even a pay raise and need approval be on the horizon?

The passport can signify receiving the green light to go ahead with your plans. If you are applying for a passport or visa this symbolizes a sign that you might be working towards an important interview or relocation request which will require you to go through an important process which can completely transform your life in the near future.

You are going to be traveling soon due to a job or other personal purposes. A new passport reflects new beginning chapters in your life. You will embark on completely new adventures with no past baggage or history. Before you lies a time where you will no longer let the past events drag you down from living the life you desire most.

Your passport photograph suggests that you will soon focus on wanderlust. You are signing up and committing to something and should consider doing it the earlier the better. A passport also indicates that you will soon have to prove your experience or knowledge. Be ready to share your abilities with others as this will open up new doors for you.

Passport/Visa and Tickets to?:

Compass: Can you locate your “true north” which symbolizes the moral compass? This your personal GPS guidance/navigation system meant to assist you in traversing over troubled seas and the unfamiliar paths you have taken or will take. As established this compass is pointing East. The below links and PDF may help you out.

Discerning the Compass’ Messages:

Solar System: The pursuit of studying space through astrology/astronomy or any number of other occult pursuits may be represented here. By knowing or learning your natal chart as well as adventuring into speculative arenas such as thought experiments one might begin to know themselves or gain further insights into the world which surrounds them.

Suggestions could include visiting a planetarium, purchasing a telescope, going camping to avoid city lights which obscure the constellations from view, and/or developing further study into esoterics, astrophysics, and so forth.

Are you trying to outrun Death or live in the moment? Or are we on the path of Nun? What propels you forward; fear (FOMO), love, or adrenaline?

Death’s connection with Scorpio would be my Western/Tropical 8th House of what our relationships will bring to us and how we can get the most out of them. Its natural ruling planet Saturn which stands for equality and justice teaches that the 8th House stands for equal opportunity. It places sex, death, and rebirth on the same playing field. Death and rebirth are a part of life.

Failed relationships lead to new ones, career changes, and a new haircut all indicate this aspect of rebirth/regeneration. It is here that we transform our insecurities into strengths. The change that we experience through this house drives us to look deeper into the hidden aspects of our self and explore life.

Shared resources such as inheritance, insurance, taxes, and alimony all fall under the realm of the 8th House. This house addresses financial and physical support as well as emotional and spiritual support. Yet in mundane spheres the 8th House can represent the debts, losses of battles, import/export, and death rate of a country.

However, in Vedic/Sidereal Scorpio would be my 2nd House of speech representing one’s capacity for verbal expression. Here one can receive acclaim in the fields of communication either verbal or written. While one may learn many languages the 2nd House also speaks to immediate family, wealth profile, and the affluence of one’s childhood depicting our virtues/vices.

If we were to observe this in mundane spheres the 2nd House can represent the wealth of a nation by indicating their financial welfare or economic matters.

May your Tuesday be triumphant! 🏆🎯

Well despite thinking the beans were dead and attempting to compost we can safely assess that more purple, green, and yellow beans are on the way. Bumper crop in the making.
The non triple digit weather and rain in Texas has meant the crepe myrtle is flowering a second time as well.
If the garlic chives get any larger I fear they make break the above ground bed. The honey bees are still actively at work!
If anyone can help identify the above weed I’d be grateful to them. It has some seed pods and white/yellow flowers. I’m not sure what this is growing alongside my beans.
Our zinnias have so many blossoms about to open that it’s overwhelming!

PS: I managed to carefully remove the two dresses from my closet where they remain in perfect condition and snag a photo of them. As seen below for the curious at heart as to what I’m describing in the costuming that I acquired in my twenties from importing overseas fashion for what was hundreds of dollars to be custom made is two dresses I’ve worn maybe once or twice only in my lifetime.

Why? I don’t really have anything that I attend anymore for which I would don this attire. Additionally at the cost they were I’m dreadfully trying to ensure they do not get damaged in any way whatsoever. Therefore when I have worn either dress I’m exceptionally OCD for fear of getting anything on them or seeing anything get ripped/torn. I put too much value upon them!

The Alice in Wonderland Hearts and Diamonds card guard was worn with stockings that had the entire suits on my legs including the Spades as well as the Clubs. It was worn for Halloween circa age 29 when I graduated beauty school for Halloween to my place of employment where no one could comprehend who I was meant to even be. Everyone was utterly baffled by what my costuming even signified guessing the theme/character wrong!

Gothic versus Alice in Wonderland Hearts/Diamonds Card Guard

Self Examination Saturdays: Through the Looking Glass Darkly (Alice’s Book of Nonsense)

Symmetry as self organizing systems extend into animal markings, tree bark, cloud patterns, and many other areas of nature.

A few months ago I had a tarot reading done long before I began my business, and I do take these as a bit of entertainment. I also love them for the insight they bring to viewing the Universe we live in through a new perspective which I previously may not have had. If you don’t follow my blog as it seems to be an ever building story where daily entries further previous blog posts it may make absolutely zero sense to you.

I need you to take another magic carpet ride on the underlined hyperlink text. 🧞‍♂️

The key points from the decks my tarot reader used resonated to me then and they still do now as we enter 2022. What did this reading point out you ask? Channeled messages always come in my eyes to us requiring further decoding so I am always analyzing them like a lunatic! I am only covering the most important parts because I want to share another idea here for my business that may come in the extended future. I woke up today having forgotten that this idea was a concept that long ago began my fervent love for astrology and archetypal studies through Jungian foundations. It entered my consciousness then the same as it does now as I have said before about mythology and the tapes/stories we tell that it is these which are meant for us to unravel their encoded language to unlock our higher self within them. Then as I began this business I learned quickly I have no audience for what I am even setting out to accomplish.

It falls on deaf ears now, and I feel like it will bear no fruit which is really causing me creative blocks I have to acknowledge and release! It is literally like a chakra imbalance and a psychic death spiral for me. I am not a fan of thanatos death drive on any given day although I know it has it’s purpose in existential realities. Again that fish out of water feeling which I won’t elaborate on. What I need is to get unstuck! I sleep on it, wake up with what feels like automatic writing, and like my head is going to explode if I don’t scramble messages together as soon as they come to me! I can’t explain this to anyone who does not feel like two different people in one body. Do actual creative types deal with this like “real artists” and is this why it is foreign to me? I did not normally feel like this before I began deep diving into esoterics. Is it supposed to feel like you’re possessed by something else and spurred onward.

“If a fish is the movement of water embodied, given shape, then cat is a diagram and pattern of subtle air.” – Doris Lessing
  • Sirian Starseed Energy: This is not that difficult for anyone to really comprehend if they understand cultural origins. Sirius is called the Dog Star and was the star of Mercury, Thoth, and Buddha which has been called the Great Instructor of Humankind. The Sun, Sirius, and the source of Logoic mind (manas) like the Pleiades in esoterica is connected to the evolution of consciousness via the Seven Rishis alongside Venus being responsible for the coming in of our Universal mind through the Earth. Here the Lords of Karma are under rulership of the Sirian Lord of Karma. This consciousness in the Solar Logos and Sirian Logos is the human ego within our human personalities. This makes those from this starseed individuation based to use a Jungian term. For those who enjoyed the movie Avatar this might make more sense through an archetypal lens. Cosmic avatars/starseeds represent embodied energies from the cosmic centers which tie into Sirius and one of the seven stars from the Great Bear constellation which is ensouled by our own cosmic center. For more info:

The Star in the East & The Three Kings

For those who really enjoy getting “lost” in esoteric concepts there’s always a journey to places such as The Voice of Silence – Earth/Sirius Connections.

  • Arcturian Starseed Energy: This has more to do with the psychology of Virgo which I covered previously and as 3/4 of my astrology always falls in the 10th/11th Houses of Leo and Virgo it makes sense. The brightest star in the virgin is ourselves. Here is an explosion of consciousness within us that regardless of religious dogma is very important so we cut down the branch of the cosmic Tree of Life and attach it to the vine or light within us. Meditation on our individual as well as collective Divine light within is what Abrahamic scriptures allegorically describe as the vine that countless Christians talk about and reject at an exoteric level. A sanctimonious religious people always will have a great trouble with this as they are always looking outside of themselves and yet their Jesus proclaimed that the Kingdom of God is within. This is very reminiscent of Carl Jung’s quote, and I am paraphrasing this “he who looks within awakens and he who looks outside of himself sleeps/dreams.” Kabbalah would show that this branch is the Christ within which is born out of Virgin consciousness which happens when we leave thought behind to meditate on the light of our spirit. There are ancient origins of Virgo in the Temple of Dendera fond in ancient Egypt 4000 BC. Virgo is presented here as Isis who gave birth to Horus.

Arcturian starseeds are part of the Virgoan third decan in astrology through Bootes. Bootes is a constellation bordered by Virgo to the south which means “ploughman/herdsman” and in Arabic Arcturus means “he cometh.” Jesus said “I am the vine, you are the branch.” You attach yourself to the vine to bear fruit during meditation as God/Goddess flows through you. Muphride is a star in the left thigh of Bootes meaning “he who separates.” He separates the wheat from the tares. In your meditation you separate yourself from your lower nature and raise yourself to the higher self in your third eye. You must also separate yourself in the stillness of meditation from the rest of the world. Nekka is a star in the head of Bootes which means “the pierced” which is described in spiritual texts. Hare Krishna was pierced by an arrow through his heel and attached to the cosmic Tree of Life. On the cross Jesus had the five piercings giving the five wounds symbolizing the five senses. For you your mind must be pierced by the light of God/Goddess through meditation and you must be crucified in the skull of Golgotha so that you fulfill your spiritual destiny or life’s purpose. You are therefore crucified on the cosmic Tree of Life by sacrificing your five senses. In Bootes he holds a sickle in his left hand and in the Bible you have the passage Revelation 14:15. One who comes to harvest the seed planted by God/Goddess in meditation.

  • Venus and Earth Teleportation: Honestly I could only think of this with my astrology chart due to the studies on the Castle/Seer configuration which looks like the Kiss of Venus in sacred geometry as regards my talks of participation mystique in psychoanalysis. I have a 7th House Taurus as Venus ruled and a 12th House Libra also Venus ruled. Some random insight is going to come to me later I know it because my brain always works that way. If I go far enough down the rabbit holes I  will find the strangest of beliefs from virtually every human and self professed guru inhabiting Earth which is also part and parcel with memetics, NLP, etc. largely used to “control” a person/populace which again connects also to vibration/frequency.
  • Taking Back Your Power as a Divine Feminine: The Divine Feminine symbolizes life itself which is associated with creation, nurturance, intuition, and empathy available within each and every one of us. Feminine energy is a creative force bringing everything into existence. In nature you see this creation of life every day. When the Divine Feminine in any woman receives a seed from the Divine Masculine she will nurture it into a physical body for a conscious being. The right side of our brains link to our Divine Feminine energy providing us with empathy, intuition, and a need for continual spiritual growth.

A strong sense of justice, balance, and morality from our Divine Feminine energy encourages us to look beyond what appears to be. Women are more advanced emotionally with a stronger awareness of their thoughts and feelings making them much more vulnerable and open to intimacy. Men, more so than women, need to work on awakening their Divine Feminine energy to tap into their emotions and the joys of intimacy. This energy works at the subconscious level and has no need to become aggressive in order to achieve what it wants to explaining why most women prefer passive resistance through manipulation to avoid heated arguments and confrontations with others. This energy trait is usually successful in resolving conflicts peacefully.

  • Stargazer Oracle Card: At first I thought this was just my love for astrology and astronomy. Then I read the card message: “Set your sights higher.” I am still trying to figure this out! It comes from the Angels and Ancestors deck. I will probably be pondering this for I do not know how long trying to decipher it. The message of the card says: “Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.” – Gail Devers

Stargazer acknowledges the wise and intuitive part of one’s self which can become inspired with a vision or calling that can lead them to create something new in the world. They don’t need to be special to be chosen. They get their calling simply because they are here, alive, and present on the planet right now. They have talents, gifts, and experiences unique to them. The Universe uses them as the vehicle for that Universal expression. So when an idea comes as a sudden flash of insight and an idea is banging around in their head or heart which won’t let them go they are being called to express that higher vibration and vision.

  • Phoenix: I am just going to leave this here. If I get into Goetia everyone will think I am weird in case they don’t already think I am weird, but I have certainly studied bits of this and then put it down out of lack of interest in pursuing it any further. And there is a direct tie back into Kabbalah with Yesod, the Moon, the number 9, and creativity.
  • Alchemy: I will also just leave this here. You can see why social media with Twitter pissed me off when I get “pop” astrologers saying they do not want to work on their projections and shadows. My response is so I have a bunch of infants or monkeys on my back throwing their guano all over. Someone has to clean up that mess and your Mother is not going to do it. I suggest you grow the $&@%# up already! Tough love is going to settle into my consciousness.

Compassion does not mean you disrespect others or leave them to do your share of the workload. Take your “I” and recognize it is nowhere in the word “team” and your “me” needs to recognize there is a “we” present here. Again my attitude can get triggered as I was not raised in a family that tolerates laziness and entitlement culture. You want to earn something you best put some effort into it.

  • Akashic Records Guardian Consciousness: Akasha is a Sanskrit term employed in teaching about God/Goddess with mystical insights referred to as “indestructible tablets of astral light” recording both the past and future of human thoughts and actions. Some believe that the Buddha taught that two things are eternal which is akasha and nirvana. Everything has come out of akasha in obedience to a law of motion inherent within it and passes away. No thing ever comes out of nothing and everything is held to a permanency of records in the akasha with a potential capacity of humanity to read these records when they have evolved to the stage of true individual enlightenment

This non-physical vibrational energy record of everything that has ever happened to every soul that has ever existed is located in the immense collective consciousness of the Universe. Therefore, the Akashic Records are an intergalactic source of endless files which consist of every thought, word, and accomplishment of every eternal being throughout all time and space. This “library” holds all the records of each soul’s journey through infinity which many usually don’t remember yet revisit in their dreams, meditation, and hypnosis sessions. Humans are born with amnesia and don’t remember what they’ve done in the past and what they are here to do in this actual lifetime.

Certain humans are born with special spiritual gifts and do remember yet many who actually don’t have these talents have instead misinterpreted the Akashic Records creating confusion in humanity. Akashic Records are usually accessed via hypnotherapy sessions or are available through self-hypnosis meditation where one visualizes the past and future. The caution is that these visions can imprint onto your many incarnations. The purpose of reading the Akashic Records is that it serves as a puzzle solver where you are able to understand repeated patterns of your life to heal your subconscious and unconscious ailments at their root cause.

I mentioned briefly that I was studying palmistry, but I find it can become a bit complex in all honesty so I’ve also put that down for now.

  • My DNA encoding protects knowledge, wisdom, and traditions I was told.

I imagine everyone’s DNA encoding does this only many don’t grasp the esoteric concept of this perhaps. Entanglement?! I would prefer to not get into gematria at this time. It is a discussion for another day if I ever cover it with my business. Unfortunately or fortunately due to perspectives being unique to each of us post foot fractures I got put on a drug cocktail for pain management which inadvertently changed my consciousness. I legitimately could only process quantum physics. If you put any other topic or book in front of me words moved on the pages as if floating and my brain shut down or I slept 13 hour days as it was pyschotropic and thus changing neurotransmission in my nervous system. I have never been the same, and I quit this cocktail cold turkey curing myself of chronic pain wholistically with nutrition and diet. Now I warn everyone of this as it was contraindicated yet doctors put me on the cocktail. I worked in medical malpractice law previously and the cocktail I was put on causes suicidal ideation which is exactly why I quit cold turkey now having a resentment towards pharmaceutical companies and medical professionals who come off as inept to me.

I took my health into my own hands and look at those who don’t as being ignorant in life! That was two months of abject hell on Earth for me as I felt I lost part of myself and could not find her. If you have read my previous blog posts you know about my fractured foot and left ankle ligament surgeries. Also for those with literally no Vulcan mind meld brain anyone like me born into Magha nakshatra is advised to avoid “drugs” as we can’t handle them without risk of a silver chord cut which in metaphysics means we would suffer suicidal ideation or die. This is why I likewise had anaphylaxis with SLS and derivatives at 26 as well as I am concerned over PEG related adjuvants. I usually opt med exempt to a lot. My doctors also have expressed they’d prefer not to take on unnecessary risks probably because when they used to ask me what I did for a profession and got told I work in medical malpractice law they started quickly scribbling in my file. I guess that would be a bit triggering to hear. Now that I don’t work in that field they still really don’t want to risk harming someone usually because I tend to make myself pretty clear about my boundaries.

At 26 this happened way after any window of observation and at 3 AM I was in an ER needing help. Not that modern society would probably care because they ignore people like me who issue these warnings that you could kill someone if you are not acting responsibly. Order followers don’t think for themselves sometimes they do as they’re told like mindless drones. Please do not make me elaborate here on this from knowledge in medical malpractice law also! SLS is in countless beauty and household chemicals. I have totally re-configured my life now and had to re-educate part of my family due to the risk it poses to my existence. Many companies I stopped supporting due to this as I had to change everything I use in my beauty care and home cleaning like laundry detergents, toilet bowl cleaners, etc. Chemical fragrance is also a huge problem for me. I will develop an immediate response to it with inflammation and sensitization which means I only use essential oils now. If you wear chemical fragrance you can harm me, and I ask you to not do this to me.

I am uninsured and what you are wearing is actually toxic to your health as well so I won’t have empathy for you because you should know the wiser with regards to endocrine disruptors, carcinogens, etc. Your free will choice for death should not risk my life. Yes, I am being blunt. If it was you, your niece/nephew, brother/sister, aunt/uncle, husband/wife, son/daughter, etc. how would you feel? Anyone?! Bueller?! It took a person with MCAS to tell me they understand how I feel. Everyone else simply looks at me like a freak of nature and acts soulless with regards to another’s well being. If human’s are not careful the mirror will reflect that back to them also in how I treat them. It is time for them to recognize this as a truth that we seem to be having some communication breakdown akin to a Led Zeppelin song. Hopefully by now someone gets the memo!

Herbal and Essential Oil Knowledge: I assume we mean my garden perhaps. I am not entirely sure what food, flowers, or herbs will be planted in 2022. I usually don’t plant till Spring as we can receive fluke winter fronts. So I will have to sit down and write out a list after I look at my established seed storage again.

Work with Archangel Raphael and Merlin: I guess I can leave these here also.

Archangel Raphael:

Yoga Esoteric

Spiritual Experience

Merlin Archetype:

Know Your Archetype

Was Merlin Even Real

For that matter was anything even real or are we all in a giant simulation. Never mind!

  • Humans merged their consciousness completely and wholly with their technology as well they were DNA hybridized with these starseed races in the past.

There is conscious need to ensure the above his or her story does not repeat again as it will mean the destruction of the human genome/species as a whole and entirety causing humanity to go completely extinct. It will not exist on the face of Earth ever again after it repeats that timeline in the present now moment. If humans choose to continue this path their extinction is assured as they will be replaced and seen as obsolete with no value or worth in that timeline. It is always about free will choice. You create your realities and timelines! Choose wisely!

The last two may be too woo woo airy fairy for some, but that was the channeled message I received in that months old tarot reading. It makes sense to me given what I see happening in science with STEM. I can totally grasp this when we play God/Goddess and consider something junk DNA. If you mess with computer code you can improve it or you can break it giving it malware and viruses. Hacking life is the same as hacking any mobile or desktop device. There could certainly be some very unforeseeable consequences that literally no one gives a $&@%# about except those who act from prudence. Others well it’s all about fiat or crypto currency, and I’m leaving it there. I’m still considering that both are in fact illusions or maya in the energy exchange we keep using to sell or maybe prostitute ourselves into bondage/slavery. But then someone will think I’m an utter pessimist put on Earth to torment my audience. Be glad you were not the teacher in elementary school explaining finance to me. I looked at her straight in the face with my standard look of “what moron cracked this concept up.” I’m still trying to wrap my head around the constructs humans live by willingly or otherwise. She’s very lucky at that age I did not say anything in class verbally and it was simply a look of WTAF. This is also probably why I got picked on by my peers. I really don’t understand some of the things humans are doing even now. I sit, observe, and family usually hears some strange commentary.

It stands to basic reason and rationale that if you alter the human or plant/animal genome enough the species will no longer be what it was originally and will become a mutant or entirely new creation perhaps a chimaera of sorts. Maybe a Star Trek Borg or Data android even. Just taking a few wild guesses. It is something I myself won’t discuss right now other than to say certain boundaries again I do not wish to cross! I have instead Pinhead from the Hellraiser series in my brain explaining to me the inherent risks of a humanity that chose to explore certain regions too far with some less than stellar outcomes for doing so mostly because humanity just got bored of all things. I mean come on…

This is why our house had some funny decor though. On one wall you saw a poster for the movie The Ten Commandments and on the opposite you saw Pinhead from the Hellraiser franchise. I’m hearing more Led Zeppelin again.

Those who refuse to comply with the “plan” are the ones society shuns, ridicules, and rejects. This is due to the fact that these tactics can mold or shape a society. No one likes to feel ostracized and outcast although some don’t give a guano. Humanity wants to belong or we would not see the number of cliques we see today reminiscent to me of my childhood in school. I preferred to be different not a follower. Something about being unique not a copy cat. I also think of robots as lacking something which humans possess and these robots won’t be capable of ever having that uniqueness that makes humanity what they are! It goes without saying most say everything was already hybridized, but I’ll stick to my organic gardening thank you very much. We’re in a world where everyone thinks to achieve better means we have to keep exploring regions unknown. That could look more like this.

I think humanity prefers to go into the uncharted with little regard for the consequences till their choice is irreversible and the damage is done. Exploration outside of our comfort zone is great when we do so while remaining logical with our choices. Taken too far we might in fact wake up one day with regrets or romanticize what we lost like paradise and our relationship to the Divine. One day you won’t be able to ever reclaim that relationship.

I have already set up six astrology reports, but in the vein of creative writing nearly a decade ago I did a personal report for myself using Alice in Wonderland themed asteroids. It was one of the funnest explorations I had ever done at the time. Our entire experience in esoterics speaks about our “mirror” reality and the shadow self as doppelgänger. I found doing this to be extremely cathartic as I have a leather bound book of Lewis Carroll stories, mathematics, etc. I do not want to take up a lot of time and space right now so I leave you with just two asteroids. I studied my natal and transits. I wonder if this kind of astrology chart would appeal to anyone in society at all. I am trying to figure out my niche and how to drive or popularize it to those who can’t get out of their comfort zone the way I can.

Not your normal deck of playing cards!

I will use Sabian symbols for one asteroid right now and Chandra for the other. These do not have to be used, but I love the rich layers they always bring to any astrology reading and I have been toying with if I should use them for any potential clients.

Asteroid Jabberwock’s natal position for me is at 9th House Gemini 27° with a 12th House Libra transit at 11°. We know that the 9th House in esoteric not exoteric deals with one’s path, ancient wisdom teachings, synthesis of all world religions/spiritual practices, cosmic law, higher mind, and the Akashic Records. But “pop” astrology is not acknowledging this at all! 12th House esoteric not exoteric is unredeemed past incarnational karma, inversion of the soul’s force, selfless service to humanity, access to collective repositories of past incarnations, and resurrection in service to the world soul.

Gemini 27° teaches that there is a desire to achieve the impossible. It takes any person a great deal of bravery to be a foreigner or an outcast yet still venture out into society seeking its rewards or enticements. This speaks of there not being much financial resources or conventional accreditation behind the person who wishes to achieve the impossible (I AM possible!). It could be due to the constraints of unhelpful and unwilling friends or family that has held one back from being able to ever strike out on their own. This degree indicates one who is wanting and trying to participate even if they don’t initially command respect or acceptance. It is difficult, but with perseverance it becomes rewarding. This degree seeks a place to truly call home while setting their sights high and going for it.

Libra 11° shows that through gaining wisdom and then passing on that same knowledge to another who is in fact receptive to the teachings creates a “New World.” It can also indicate the channeling of pure instinctual knowledge. Our true inner knowledge (gnosis) is not conventional at all rather it is a modern conceptualization passed on about this “New World.” All those silly conventional certifications of knowledge such as diplomas and degrees are actually of zero importance for it’s what’s being brought through that’s important. Look within, be a guiding light, seek the truth, teach the “New World,” and use your instinctual knowledge (gnosis).

Asteroid Redqueen natal position for me is at 8th House Taurus 24° with a 4th House Pisces transit at 25°. We know that the 8th House in esoteric not exoteric deals with discipleship, rebirth into the consciousness of the soul, transmutation of personal desire into group wishes, and liberation into world service and victory of the soul. 4th House esoteric not exoteric is family and genetic karma, the Mother principal from which we all came, and the ashram of a Master (spiritual home of the disciple).

Taurus 24° appears to be at first glance someone with a handicap. So how exactly has this individual miraculously made it to adulthood (they’re not a child) without eating. The degree speaks of a very deep and primitive form of independence implying this individual is beyond words and is a person of action dealing with tangibles more than concepts. The Kabbalah tells us of a great importance to be found in even very small things so our researcher is in fact highly observant like Sherlock Holmes. They can deduce much from scant information turning what seems like a very little into a great richness.


A man with no mouth.

Nothing to say, everything to do. The self cannot be articulated because it is far too busily pressed out into emergency mobilization twenty-four hours a day. No personal life, no personal world, no personal self. Just fantastic availability to the call, the collective vigil, entered upon willingly and selflessly. The demands and rigors of this position and stance are punishing and extreme. You are so hardpressed, so rabidly attentive that nothing else exists. The assignment is clear, brutally so. Be on the spot at every level, maintain order, keep everything going and stay tuned to everything unusual and strange. Follow it out, keep it in your sights and make absolutely sure that you stay sober, integrity sworn and minutely diligent to hold the center and uphold the law with a steadfastness that is beyond belief, and simply true.

Pisces 25° shows that the shock of anything unexpected wakes us up so that we see our reality in completely new ways. There is nothing to be afraid of here, but the people and animals did not know until normalcy returns. Even though solar eclipses only happen about twice a year this degree lives continually in that state of surprise which the eclipse has produced. They are always tapping in to the strangeness of life as well as the energies which are forever at work beneath the surface beyond the pale that our perceptions have erected.

This ability to tap in to a greater reality allows one to shock others into new awareness which brings in that which was living in their subconscious and unconscious The Moon in alignment with the consciousness of the Sun allows us to gain insight into the hidden aspects of ourselves we otherwise could not know. All of this happens quite spontaneously and surprisingly.


People and animals frightened during an eclipse.

Going deep and going far, yet emotionally afraid and bereft. Impelled by great force of being to carry on with destiny strides forward; you are periodically swamped by onslaughts of everything feared coming true. Being certain and being terrorized. The exquisite gift of pulling yourself through the enactment of personal, collective, and ancestral nightmares. You feel a consecration to what is coming into being on the expanded horizon, and a warrior’s courage in always going back and grappling with the lingering shadows. A mission that cannot be refused. And a sense of purpose that defies its own collapse and rises from the ashes repeatedly.

These characters should be easy for those familiar with Alice in Wonderland to grasp. For others I leave you a couple of videos because it is the only way for me to get your attention perhaps:

I grew up with this movie as a child. I also grew up with Labyrinth and a few others. I an an 80s/90s byproduct still. But I think the message of this scene will get the point across to my audience at least I hope. It is after all perhaps a bit cryptic again about how we view our reality and what we choose to believe.

Jabberwocky Scene (1985)

The Red Queen Hypothesis

Happy 2022, and I hope you have a great Saturday. Hopefully you’ve also been a bit amused along the way! 🐇☕️🎩🍰🃏🪄🫖🐁🍄💐⏱️🐈‍🔮

PS: As usual I proofread this 2x, and I may have errors I still missed. It is late again, and I need another pair of eyes I think.

Also I want to note I have seen the articles and videos about astrology as pseudoscience. We could throw the baby out with the bathwater since as I have stated I do not like “pop” astrology. Repeatedly I have expressed that I use it to spring board off a foundation with shadow work or archetypes as others do having read Carl Jung. I even spoke to a 40 year career psychologist who made his living in the same way. This man had authored many books and was at the forefront of the concepts of the Secret, Law of Attraction, etc. Would we say cognitive behavioral therapy, positive affirmations, or all self help authors are pseudoscience because essentially they too are “fluff?” Hospitals recommend alternatives like acupuncture, dry needling, and Reiki now because they know it also has a calming effect on us which benefits anxiety disorders as well as can help with other ailments of which chronic pain is one of them. I know from my own personal experiences in life. Occupational therapists advised meditation and techniques such as these to help calm the body slowing the nervous system down from sending pain responses in fight or flight mode.

This is why I have even argued that we have hypocrisy rampant in humanity as a two faced caricature of our lives. Most say anything outside of the traditional seven or nine planets has no significance in a chart not even the asteroid Goddesses. Those same people can’t then say “As above so below” while ignoring the newly discovered trans Neptunian objects, asteroid belt, Kuiper belt objects, etc. in the same sentence for it makes the maxim they then profess a lie as well.

The problem lies in boundaries as I have said before. Or likewise lies in identifying so strongly with any part of the astrology chart as to believe it or a tarot reading were fatalistic and that you have no control over your life. None of which is how I use astrology or advise a client to use it. It is a tool used to glimpse at possible subconscious or unconscious drives one may operate from. We all have a shadow and we all “project” therefore we need to become conscious observers of this in our lives to take the projections back in thereby owning our individual/collective shadow. And if you have seen my blog posts I always put a spin on using both tarot and astrology in interpretation even trying to explain consciousness via various spiritual practices. I use astrology to expand my mind not live in a prison cell box.

Here is a video I found which helps explain some of this as well. This video is an hour long, and if you are willing to sit through it might also help one understand what occurs in astrology haters the same as those who hate religion for the atrocities it has caused. Religion only causes problems when it is misunderstood and wrongly taught. This can be said for any subject matter taught. History is a great example of this. Revisionism, for example, makes the course become one of lies as well which could be passed down the generations akin to an Orwellian 1984. Math if taught improper as well could be quite problematic. Science is all about testing a hypothesis and again can deal with confirmation bias to be perfectly honest. So these arguments are kind of a misnomer of philosophical abstractionism between subjective and objective opinions.